Crossdressing To Survive An Apocalypse

Chapter 195 - 195 - Not 'him'



"A stranger can't have Fan Xui's memories? Who are you? Answer me clearly or I will hurt you."

Fan Xui raised his hands up in surrender. Looking at the angry Yue he felt like he was standing in front of an angry kitten with all its fur fluffed up. A smile slipped out accidentally.

"Are you laughing at me?! you!" the dagger slightly cut his throat. "you think I won't do this, huh? Answer me right now? Who are you?"

Right then, the door opened. "Fan ah, oh my god, why are you bullying a blind person? I will come for you Fan ah! I will save you!" Liwei ran in.

"Out!" Yue back kicked the door close, slamming the man right in his face.

Liwei collapsed on the ground, unconscious.

"Now, you, answer me. Who are you?" Yue tightly held the dagger to his throat.

Fan Xui peered down at his trembling eyes. "I'm Fan Xui,"

"b-but you... you said you were a stranger..." Yue slightly moved the dagger from his throat.

"I am to you, because the Fan Xui you knew..... Disappeared a long time ago..." Fan Xui softly whispered looking at his expressions.

Yue's expression changed drastically. His bottom lip started trembling slightly. "Clarify.... why... where is the Fan Xui I know? What happened to him? W-why did he disappear?"

"He did not wake up from the coma. Instead I, 'Fan Xui' woke up," Fan gently caressed his cheeks.

Yue moved away, holding his chest. "He...he died? Or... is it a metaphor or something? it doesn't make any sense..."

"Not a metaphor..... I don't know how to explain it. My soul is from another plane Yue. A world similar to this. I died there. One day I just woke up here. But I knew you from then, you did not know me. I saw you every day watching me....'

Yue shook his head, cupping his ears tightly. "Stop..."

"Yue, please, listen to me. I know you feel betrayed. But... I am Fan Xui too. i-isn't that okay? Isn't that the same?" he gently held his shoulders.

Yue flung him away. "It's not the same! It's not!" he screamed, hugging his head. "Fan Xui..is gone...."

Fan Xui felt his headache piercingly once again. He massaged his brows subtly. "Yue... I am Fan Xui.... I am the person you met in the hospital; I am the person you.... kissed....."

"No!" Yue screamed loudly. "Stop it! I.. I kissed a stranger."

His head started to pound. "Yue..." he tried to get a hold of him but Yue kept pushing him away.

Tears started dripping down his lover's face. "You are not him... I thought I was kissing 'him'"

Fan Xui sighed... deep in his heart, he knew this will happen. He knew one day Yue will find the truth and reject him like this. But he did not expect the day to come so soon. He desperately tried to get a hold of him.

"Don't touch me! Don't..." Yue pushed him away, sobbing. "You are not my Fan Xui. I want my Fan Xui!"

A sharp stabbing pain hit his head all of a sudden. Fan Xui's legs started to tremble violently. he reached out to the wall holding it to steady him. 'Not now.. I can't collapse now...' he hit his head, hoping the pain will go away.

"I want my Fan Xui!" Yue cried, grabbing onto his shirt. "Give him back to me! I want my Fan Xui..." his head leaned on his back softly.

Fan Xui's headache escalated to an unbearable pain level. Black spots started swimming in front of his eyes. he could feel his eyeballs burn.

"I... Yue..." he whispered softly.

"Don't call my name familiarly. Don't.... you are not my Fan Xui."

Those words stabbed his heart like a sharp dagger. 'It's over.....'

Something in him just stopped at that moment.

He could not hold on to his consciousness any longer. He collapsed to the ground, holding his head.

"F-Fan..." Yue shook him. he remained unresponsive on the ground. "Fan! Fan! Wake up!"

Small electric currents started to swim in the air. like little snakes they swished around Fan Xui's body, entering through his ears.

"wh... what is this? Fan Xui! Wake up!"

"ahhhhh!!!!" Fan Xui screamed rolling onto his stomach. He was clawing at his head desperately.

"Oh no... Fan Xui.. What is it? What is hurting.... what is it? Juda! Juda! Please come here.. help! Help!!" he screamed holding him onto his lap.

Fan Xui's eyes visibly turned a bright blue and shone brightly.

"Help! Somebody!... anybody...." he held Fan Xui on his lap sobbing.

Fan Xui's eyes started to tear up as well. He gently reached out and touched his face, wiping away his tears.

"Fan Xui.... don't die.. don't...."

"agh...." Fan Xui rolled off of him into the ground holding his stomach. And started puking.

"Water... I'll get you some water..."

Fan Xui held his hand tightly, shaking his head. He groaned, loudly.

"Is your head hurting... what is it? What is hurting ah? Fan ah, what is hurting... what is wrong with you..."

"ahhhh!!!!' he screamed in pain...

This time a small white flash spread out in the room. Electric currents started leaking out of him, sparkling bright. Loud rumbles sounded in the small room.

The electric current passed through their connected hands over to his body.

"Hiss..." Yue tightly held his hands. "Fan ah... Fan...." he sobbed loudly. his body started to convulse from the high voltage of electricity coursing through his veins.  Yue's body could not handle it.

Fan Xui let go of his hand. a small smile graced his lips.... "y.... Yue..."

His eyes rolled back, exposing only the white of his eyes.

"no! no.. no...." he gripped his hands once again. "Wake up.. wake up."

Another strong electric current hit his body. He could not even stand up anymore.

Yue crawled close to Fan, holding his hands tightly. "I'm sorry... I... I'm so sorry....Fan...."

His eyes closed on its own. He could feel it... the electricity was still passing through every inch of his body wrecking havoc.

It was making it hard to breathe.

He wheezed and panted...

And finally

He stopped breathing.

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