Chapter 99 - Gavon's Pain
"I don't know how and why I am in the palace, no one in the palace ever mentioned anything to me and when I asked, instead of explaining they used to despise me. They call me with various names, and at that time I don't know the meaning of those words."
"Seeing their faces I used to understand that they don't like me, slowly I distanced myself from the people here. Until one day His Majesty's personal advisor came looking for me and placed me in training grounds."
"On that day onwards my intense training started, I don't know why I was placed there, why I had to go through the training, I didn't dare to ask anyone and no one explained to me. Soon I heard that my existence is to save the King." Gavon chuckled dryly and his eyes were hollow without any emotion.
Ivy felt bad seeing his expression, she doesn't know how to console him. At least she enjoyed her parent's company and her grandfather was with her till she reached a certain age. Now she had everyone in her life.
But for Gavon no one is beside him to take care of, she understood the pain he had gone through and the mental stress he bore at such an age is really heartbreaking. Ivy placed her hand on his hand which grabbed the branch hard.
Gavon felt the cool sensation on his hand and he relived the grip, his whole body became cool in an instant and he continued "From that day onwards I started my training as a knight, my master is strict and ruthless. I don't know how many times I want to escape from this or at least from this world."
"Master Jhon is the one who saved me from this torture. Until he came, my life was hell, I never feared training but at that time my age was around six or seven. I died to hear the words 'It's Okay. Take it easy' but he never utters those. I cried, I begged but he didn't heed my words."
Gavon's eyes turned red by remembering his childhood. He wants to escape from this place to some faraway place but he didn't have a chance to do so. From dawn to dusk he trained like an ox and there was no one beside him to keep him motivated. He always thought that it was all for his good but sometimes he felt very depressed and helpless.
"At that time I ran away from the grounds and found this tree. It hid me from the world and took me in its embrace. Until then I don't know how motherly embrace will be but when holding this tree trunk sitting on its branch gave me the motherly feeling." Gavon touched the tree gently and his eyes were clear with affection to this tree.
Every night his body aches with intense training, sometimes he starves due to punishment, sometimes even though he has food his hands won't support him to eat. He has gone through hellish training and when he can't tolerate that he comes to this tree and hides in its warm embrace until he feels good.
He climbed the tree and hid behind these tree leaves, they give him a safe feeling and he spent his day there without anyone criticism and torture. From that day onwards he used to climb this tree and sat on the middle branch where no one could find him. It became a habit until he met Ethan.
Gavon sighed and looked at Ivy whose face was stained in tears. Ms Aivyn, What's wrong? Why are you crying? Did I say something? Please don't cry." Gavon panicked. He doesn't know why she is crying and what made her cry.
Ivy wiped her tears and said "I am sorry. I just feel bad for you. Just the thought of you being trained with those knights, the days you cried silently, the days you feel sick.."
"Shh.. Aivyn. It's all in the past. They are over. Please don't cry." Gavon consoled Ivy, he really felt good in his heart after sharing his pain with her and the thought she cried for him made his heart do a somersault but he didn't want her to cry more.
Ivy wiped her tears and fanned herself to calm down.
"My Lord, You did a great job," Ivy said sincerely. She just doesn't want to say to make him feel good but she wants him to know that there are people who can truly appreciate him for who he is.
Gavon's eyes widened, he didn't know why but her words triggered something in him and he liked this feeling.
"I didn't say this to console you, I deeply feel your pain and the emotions you are carrying with you this whole time. There are people out there who will see you for who you are. Trust Me, despite all these situations you turn into a beautiful butterfly. I truly appreciate it and please love yourself from now on." Ivy said each and every word genuinely.
Yes, all this while he is trained to save the king, now he is doing that and in fact, saved him. He achieved what is told to him and now this is his turn to fulfil his wish.
How long has he been waiting for these kinds of words? How long does he want someone to see who he is? Just how long?
"T-Thank you, Thank you so much." Gavon doesn't have any words except gratitude.
Ivy smiled gently and said seriously "My Lord, you achieved what is told to you, now it's your turn to be happy and fulfil your wish. Tell me what wishes you have?"
Gavon was stupefied by the sudden question, 'Yes, what wishes he has? Does he have any?"
"Ms Aivyn that.." Gavon doesn't know what he wants, all this while he fulfilled his duty as the Shield, Lord and master.
Ivy understood his feelings, it's sudden for him to make a decision "Okay, just make a list. Yes, a list of your wishes. Say 10"
"No, No, 20?"
"No, No, 50?"
"Nah, 100"
"No, My Lord, just make a list of unlimited wishes you have. Just don't limit yourself to any certain number. After making that list, try to fulfil each and every wish one by one."
"After fulfilling your wish, mark it. Like that one day, all your wishes should be fulfilled" Ivy said with stars in her eyes.
Gavon felt immense happiness at once, he didn't know how to take it. He is overwhelmed by the emotions, no one ever discussed with him like this, no one ever felt this happy for his own wishes. Ivy is feeling like she is making her list and going to fulfil them.
Gavon chuckled seeing her dreamy look "Ms Aivyn, Thanks. Sure I will make a list."
"Really?" Ivy excited, "Then.. Please show me after you make a list. I want to see it."
"Sure, in fact, if you don't mind I would require your help in fulfilling my wishes. Will you help me?" Gavon asked nervously.
"Of Course," Ivy shouted with happiness.