Chapter 128 - The Wake-up Call
"What?!"
Qiuchen raises his head, his gaze filled with complicated feelings, but without the slightest hesitation, he looks solemnly at Yuan Ge and repeats, "The passion of cut sleeve[1], the love of Lord Longyang[2]… in this era, you call it homosexuality. Then, yes, I am a homosexual."
"Hey, you can't talk about things like that so casually. You can't come out of the closet so, so off hand!"
Yuan Ge didn't expect Rong Qiuchen to speak so directly and didn't know what to say for a moment. He frowns at the entwined naked bodies and the soft moans that kept coming from the screen, thinking that this dimly lit environment is really not suitable for discussing such serious topics.
"Please, calm down. It's easy to get carried away after watching so many gay movies. Don't define yourself that way so readily."
As if he has not heard Yuan Ge's words at all, Qiuchen stares at his face unyieldingly. Under the flicker of light and shadow, there is even something aggressively bright in his eyes, "I have long since decided on the person I like. I just don't know how to let him know in this time and in this world."
Yuan Ge feels a little anxious all of a sudden in the face of Qiuchen's unbelievably bold declaration and sits down beside him with a grave face, saying, "You can joke about other things, but don't talk nonsense about things like coming out of the closet! Don't think that it's no big deal in this day and age. Even after a hundred years, it is still very difficult to change people's long-held prejudices. In our time, homosexuality is still an extremely taboo subject."
Pointing to the screen, Yuan Ge continues, "Look at them, all deeply in love with each other, but how tragically they ended up, do you know? And, since you've watched so many gay movies, you should know that not many of these people have lived happily ever after."
"How could I not know that? Since the beginning of time, same-sex love has been a taboo. It is never easy for men to trust each other with their hearts without fearing the world and what people say. Even if they are willing to live and die together, they may not be able to hold each other's hands and grow old together."
When Rong Qiuchen says this, he looks a little melancholy, as if remembering something, he sighs lightly and continues, "What's more, I always misread people's hearts. I don't know how he feels yet. Even if I like him, he may not have any feelings for me."
Yuan Ge carefully surveys Qiuchen's expression and suddenly exclaims in realisation, "I see. I know who you like!"
"You know?!" It is Qiuchen's turn to be surprised, staring expectantly at Yuan Ge, just waiting for him to utter the name he wants to hear.
"Liang Zitang."
"You're … you-are-asking … for a good beating."
Qiuchen is completely speechless at Yuan Ge's mood-spoiling reply. He leans forward, confining him to the narrow space between his chest and the sofa, his gaze having regained its previous eager eagerness.
Yuan Ge struggles, not wanting to give in so easily, "Did I say something wrong? Didn't you insist on never going to be OOC in this game? You've left no details unattended in cosplaying Rong Qing, and even pretended to be gay. I was so shocked just now that I almost believed it. Okay, so the person Rong Qing likes is Liang Zitang, isn't it...…"
"Is it really..." Rong Qiuchen doesn't bother to argue with him and continued to press closer, his gaze so full of affection that one simply can't overlook it.
Yuan Ge feels that looming pressure, and his space to move is squeezed to the limit bit by bit. He can't help but shrink back, seeing Qiuchen's unparalleled handsomeness infinitely magnified in front of his eyes.
Is his skin made of translucent jade? How come it is so perfectly smooth, without a single flaw; these lips are so well-defined and lightly coloured, unlike Yin Fenghua, who couldn't hide the dullness of over-smoking even with lip gloss; only now do I notice that this guy's eyelids have many folds and he has a pair of natural peach blossom eyes that seduce the soul with a glance and usher in spring with a smile...
Yuan Ge's mind is racing with confusing thoughts, but he cannot take his eyes off the face of the man in front of him. His cheeks become hot without him realising it, and Yuan Ge feels his whole body is burning. He wants to say something, but his mouth is dry and his throat is tight.
All he can see is that beautiful face and his own reflection in those clear, watery eyes. The heavy sadness of the past is erased from his eyes and replaced by a sincere and passionate lust, with the magic of seduction - Yuan Ge feels like a rabbit facing a giant snake, unable to move and without any strength to struggle except to stare back blankly. Before he knows it, he is pinned down on the sofa by Qiuchen, unable to move.
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[1] Emperor Ai is famous for being the most effusive homosexual emperor of the Han dynasty. Traditional historians characterized the relationship between Emperor Ai and Dong Xian as one between homosexual lovers and referred to their relationship as "the passion of the cut sleeve" after a story that one afternoon after falling asleep for a nap on the same bed, Emperor Ai cut off his sleeve rather than disturb the sleeping Dong Xian when he had to get out of bed.
[2] The story of Lord Longyang took place sometime between 276 and 243 BCE, and is the second account of a male same-sex relationship in Chinese historical records. Lord Longyang and the King of Wei are in a fishing boat together when Longyang begins to cry. After the king pressures him to say why he is crying, Longyang reveals that he is afraid that the king will be tempted by other, more beautiful men, and lose interest in him. The king then forbids anyone to mention other beauties in his presence under penalty of death.. As a result of his status as a favourite of the king, Lord Longyang was given a small fief and a feudal title.