Chapter 181: You Should Give Up
181 You Should Give Up
While Yan is in the turmoil inside his mind, Jun Hua shifts her gaze towards the two talking people in the distance. She can't hear their voice because this room is designed to be sound proof and despite she can read their lips, she didn't do it.
Looking towards Soujin and Tian Ni, somehow Jun Hua feels that she shouldn't have disturbed them to be together. Now that Soujin had his eyes set to someone else, can Tian Ni snatch it back? To look at Soujin with that kind of eyes is something that Jun Hua cannot do right now and might not be able to at all.
From the moment she decide to pursue revenge and get back what her family supposed to have from back then, she already knows that she won't be able to have a normal relationship. Being engaged with someone, marry, and life peacefully have become a dream she might not be able to retrieve.
However, her life for the past few weeks is just like a dream. A dream she never wants to get up from. Staying with her friends, interacting with them, and everything are truly fun. But everything that have start will come to an end, so she knows it's already time to end this.
When Jun Hua looks at them, Soujin is talking with Tian Ni. Tian Ni looks at Soujin with worried and hopeful expression. "Soujin."
"Don't call me by my name, Lady Ni," Soujin said calmly.
When Soujin said that, Tian Ni feels her heart tighten. Why would he suddenly draw a line between them? They have been playing tougher when they are children, so she thought that he would be treating her warmly. But previously he ignores her and this time, he didn't want her to call him so closely.
"Prince Soujin," Tian Ni greeted again. She wants to be close with him again, so she opened her mouth once again, "Are you mad at me for leaving Ming Kingdom?"
Soujin looks at the girl properly for the first time before shaking his head. "You're mistaken, I never angry at you."
"Then…." Tian Ni feels her hope is raised again. If he's not angry with her, can she still have any chance to get him?
However, Soujin next word crushed her hope entirely, "Men and women should maintain a distance from each other. I never have any feeling for you. You better find another man and didn't get close to me anymore."
Tian Ni choked down the words she wants to say as she looks towards Soujin with disbelieving gaze. Why did he suddenly say that to her? She doesn't want to believe it.
"General…."
"Please leave," Soujin said politely and didn't bother looking at the girl anymore. Tian Ni clenched her fist, how can she give up that easily? She had already waited for so long. Asking her to change her feelings in a short period of time, how could she be willing?
She looks towards the little girl inside the room. Because of the distance, she cannot see the other party clearly. Could it be that Soujin already have someone he likes? But there is also Prince Yan inside the room, so she might not be someone Soujin likes.
Pressing her feeling down, she looks towards her servant. She will return today, but she will surely make him hers!
Soujin looks towards his two friends. Yan is looking away while Jun Hua is looking troubled. Soujin looks at Jun Hua. He doesn't know why, but he had a bad feeling about this like if he let her go, he would never be able to see her anymore. The girl in front of him is still the same as before, but she seems to have distanced herself from him.
On the other hand, though Soujin had returned, Jun Hua didn't have the courage to look at him. She doesn't dare to look towards Soujin eyes. She cannot bring herself to tell him that she cannot stay with him.
"You will leave me forever?" Soujin said slowly.
"I don't know," Jun Hua said with her heads down.
"I want you to stay here."
This words stabbed into Jun Hua hearts even more. Although the way Soujin revealed it is really blunt, it still conveyed the most important message. She knows that, but what did Soujin seen in her to say the words so loudly?
"I…I don't have any right to say the same to you," Jun Hua answered. I have lied to you over and over again by hiding my identity.
"Why?" Why does she choose that word? What did she hide from him? Soujin looks at that pair of eyes that's too scared to look at him. What had he missed? With his keen eyes, he could look pass what the usual things, but only towards this girl, he can't see through her.
"I'm sorry."
"I can go towards the Mountain Kingdom if it's needed."
Jun Hua looks up. "Unless the war era ended, how long do you think an alliance between two different kingdoms lasted?"
With that Jun Hua walked past Soujin. Soujin stared at the girl back as she walked.After a few seconds, he opened his mouth.
"I will wait for you."
A single sentence made her heart jolted. Can she put her hope in it? She didn't know whether she could do it or not, but she wants to believe in him. Jun Hua stopped for a moment, but she didn't answer anything. She didn't know how long the war will last, but she is not going to stop before she finished everything.
It will be painful to separate from those whom she cares about, but she can't stay with them at this time. Maybe she could have chosen a different path, but she can't just throw away what she had been planning all these years. In the end, this is the path she had chosen.
That words from Jun Hua, Soujin understands it. Ming Kingdom and Mountain Kingdom are two different kingdoms which are at odds with each other. That is unless he too leaves Ming Kingdom which is something impossible for the current him.
Ever since Jun Min told him that the Jun family had to leave, he knows that his feeling is something that cannot happen. But, he foolishly tries to hold on to his feeling and keeps treasuring it. He doesn't want to lose her. Not even now.
"There are other girls out there, you should just give up."
"I can't Yan. There is only one girl like her."
Yan shrugged. He doesn't understand what Soujin seen in that girl except the fact that she is a stunning beauty, but he won't intervene. He just hoped that his friend wouldn't hurt himself.