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“I am good, Diamond.” Jason answered again in his supercalm voice, which was only making it difficult for Kizy to speak ahead.
“Hehe.. that’s great… you see.. I was trying to say… I mean.. let’s-” Kizy was still speaking when Jason interrupted her.
“You don’t have to force yourself if you don’t want to. Just go and rest.” Jason said, worried that this will affect her mental health.
“No no.. it’s not that.. it’s just that…” Kizy paused, closing her eyes before taking her much needed deep breath.
“I am sorry!” Kizy said, finally managing to speak properly.
It wasn’t that she didn’t want to apologize but more like her guilty conscience was making it harder for her to confess her mistakes.
“It’s ok. You don’t have to apologize. Now go and rest.” Jason answered, his heart breaking from Kizy’s apology.
“No wait. You just listen and don’t interrupt me now. Let me speak it all.” Kizy said before walking towards the chair and taking a seat in front of Jason.
Jason just kept looking at her, as if silently giving her approval to speak ahead.
“I am sorry for my behaviour last night. I should have discussed my plan with you before blurting fake news in front of public. I had seriously lost my mind and most propbably made Markus’s situation more problematic. Plus I shouldn’t have argued with you all and ran out. I.. I have been doing everything wrongly, and yet you all are still there by my side, without leaving me even… even once. I just don’t understand whether I would ever be able to thank you enough and similarlly apologize for all the stupid things I have ever done.” Kizy said and paused, sobbing in between while thinking deep before opening her mouth again.
“I.. I seriously felt like dying yesterday. In fact I had been feeling the same for quite some time.. some days. I just felt as if I had lost my oxygen since Markus left. I had been trying hard to survive without him, but it was becoming impossible with each passing day until.. until I felt that maybe dying was easier than living.
I know I must be sounding like a damn coward, but that’s how I thought. And I am also sorry for not speaking it all with you. You had always been my saviour, my guide and supporter, one whom I could look up to in.. in every situation. Yet I foolishly kept all my thoughts to myself and I am.. I am truly sorry for.. for that.” Kizy said before ultimately her sobs turned into cries, his heart shattering into a million pieces while watching the love of his life carrying so much pain all by herself.
Jason instantly got up and came to Kizy’s side, kneeling beside her chair. He removed a handkerchief from his pocket before passing it to Kizy.
He so badly wanted to wipe her tears away and embrace her into his warm hug, but he knew his limits. He had promised Markus to take care of Kizy professionally, no more no less.
Plus though he loved Kizy insanely, he knew what was Kizy’s happiness. He could see the love Kizy and Markus shared, and never wanted her to stop laughing and smiling the way she did while Markus was present.
Hence he was happy watching Kizy smile and laugh, even when the reason for her laughter was not him.
“It must have been very hard for you to carry all this burden by yourself. Sorry for not understanding your pain even when we were witnessing you suffer every single day.
And who said you are a coward? How can a person going through all this alone will ever be a coward? If anything, you have been the bravest of all and I am proud of you for that.” Jason said, making Kizy shocked.
She knew that Jason was not the one to sugar coat words and tell lies. Even though he was considerate about others feelings, he would still point out all the mistakes, while being utmost polite and careful to not hurt the person in front.
Thus she knew that each and every word he said must be true and not just something to make her feel better.
“But there is only one thing that you did wrong. Guess what?” Jason said in a gentle voice, relieved that Kizy had stopped crying.
“Not sharing this with anyone.” Kizy said while lowering her head.
“Exactly. But you don’t have to feel guilty about it, Diamond. We all should have been more attentive towards you and we are at fault as well.
But I hope that next time onwards you will share your problems. It is not necessary that you share it with me. Instead you can tell Rose, Victor, Harry, Nicole or any other person you are comfortable with.
Since you already know your mistake, it is enough. I just hope that you will never repeat that again. Go and talk it out with someone. Hmmm?” Jason said, still being in his gentle mode.
“I promise.” Kizy replied.
“Now go and freshen up. Let’s have a healthy breakfast. I know that Rose would have already spoken with you so I don’t have to lecture you anymore. Just don’t forget why Markus has done this all. If you were to die, then all the risks and dangers he might be facing right now are useless.
If you truly want to do something, then be stronger. Be so strong that you never feel lacking, no matter who you are fighting against.” Jason said before getting up and filling a glass of water for Kizy. ρꪖꪕᦔꪖꪕꪫꪣꫀꪶ
“Thank you.” Kizy said while taking the glass and taking small sips of water.
“I will go now. Sorry for making all the wrong decisions and making you all worry. I will never repeat the same thing again.” Kizy said before getting up and hugging Jason tightly, making him freeze.
He had never expected this moment to ever happen in his life. He paused for a second before raising his hands and caressing her head, still taking care to not cross the limit.
In fact the way he was hugging Kizy felt like a father hugging his daughter, with care and affection.
Finally after a minute, Jason broke the hug, while looking straight into Kizy’s eyes.
“No matter who stays or who leaves, Markus would never leave you alone and so will our team. Thus remember that you will always have a place to come back to, to rant, to cry and even to say meaningless things.
Now go and have your breakfast or else Rose will scold me for making you wait this long.” Jason said, smiling at the end.
“Yeah.” Kizy said and started walking towards the door.
She was about to open it when she suddenly turned back.
“Jason.” She called back.
Jason, who had turned his back towards Kizy to look at the garden outside his window, turned back to face her.
“Hmm?” He asked.
“I have a favour to ask from you.” Kizy said.
“Diamond, you and favour? Just say you need some help. Or maybe you don’t even have to say that and simply ask whatever it is.” Jason said.
“I would have done that if it was related to me. But it is about someone else.” Kizy replied.
“Who?” Jason asked while raising his eyebrow.
“Ok so first of all, don’t think about any negative situation. In fact the news is very positive. But I don’t know how you will react. So I am-” Kizy was still speaking when Jasin cut her off.
“Come to the point. Don’t beat around the bush.” Jason said quickly, his mind already running everywhere, thinking about all types of situations.
“Ok so the thing is, once all this fiasco is over, I mean when Markus will come back and everything returns to normal and there is peace everywhere, I want you to go and have a nice talk with First sister.” Kizy said slowly.
“Rose?” Jason asked in confirmation, thinking he must have misheard Kizy.
“Yeah. You need to have a good talk with her and remember to be calm and gentle all the time.” Kizy said.
“Why though?” Jason asked cluelessly.
“Just do as I have told you. Anyways I will get going now. I am way too hungry.” Kizy said before finally leaving Jason’s room, leaving a confused Jason to have an internal battle of thoughts.
*8 AM, MARKUS’s OFFICE, STARDUST*
Victor walked inside the office before settling down on a desk meant for a secretary. Both Jason and Rose had asked him to handle work at the office which he was trying to do right now.
He had already made a lot of heads turn while he was entering the office, making him a gossip within a short time.
But ‘Stardust’ being a professional company, the news died down quite early,thankfully not creating any troubles for Victor.
“Kizy, I had-” suddenly the door opened and the person entering stopped in tracks, shocked to see Victor instead of Kizy.
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Don’t forget to drink water and stay hydrated. Take care!!
– Kizy