Chapter 85 - [Bonus ] I’m Not Letting Go
Yu Dong knew why he was saying all this, so she extended her hands and cupped his face, making him look her in the eye ” listen to me Liu, I am not going anywhere and I will never leave you or anyone behind. I do admit that I wasn’t ready to take so many responsibilities at once and I was indeed a bit overwhelmed by everything but I’m not letting go of anyone, alright? So stop worrying about me leaving you. Be confident in yourself, if I leave you guys where will I find mers as good as you three ?”
Ye Liu grasped her hands that were cupping his face and cried, he felt guilty, ashamed and all kind of confused. He always knew that he was too masculine and no woman would like him, so hearing these words from Yu Dong made him both confused and happy ” if so, why don’t you – why don’t you” Ye Liu who somehow found a little bit of his courage licked his lips and wanted to ask but he couldn’t, what was he supposed to say? That why his wife wasn’t having s*x with him wasn’t it too embarrassing?
” why I don’t do what a wife does to her husband?” finished Yu Dong when she saw Ye Liu struggling. She didn’t know how this shy little tsundere came with the courage to chase after her. With his guts, he should have stayed inside the house and waited for her to come to him, though she was happy that he was willing to take a step forward, she chuckled when he flushed red and brushed the playful strands of his hair which escaped in their scuffle of tugging the blanket, she tucked them back and sat down in front of Ye Liu ” I might have come in between but I do have the memories of your previous wife. I know what she did to you and how she -” when she noticed that Ye Liu had gone pale blanching as if nauseous, she stopped and changed her words, taking his hand in hers she continued ” what I mean, is that I know your sufferings, Liu, I know that you suffered through. I don’t want to make things worse for you. I certainly like you three, if not I wouldn’t have stayed behind, I’m not kind enough to take care of people I don’t have in my heart, it’s just that I want you three to heal slowly and accept me before, I do anything to you. I don’t want to force you or your body when I know it’s still healing, it’s certainly not because I find you unattractive… I might be oblivious to your advances, yes, but I’m not stupid. I know that as your wife someday we might do something like that but I want you to enjoy it. I don’t want you to do it because you are afraid to lose me or because you think that – that’s the only thing you can offer me. You are more than that, you are my husband, not a s*x tool that has to serve me when I want and because you want to make me happy and if that’s what’s going on in your head if you really want to make me happy then be happy for yourself first, everything else can come later”
Ye Liu clutched her hands, ‘ be happy?’ that’s the first time someone said something like that to him. Everyone condemned him for being a mer, they always acted like him working for them was only right that him giving up on his happiness was only normal but Yu Dong said that she wants him to be happy instead of worrying about her. Suddenly, Ye Liu felt a bubbling warmth in his heart and he hugged Yu Dong, he never thought that he could fall for someone this much but she proved him wrong. Pulling her in a hug, Ye Liu whispered ” if it’s you I – I don’t mind. And if I stay like this maybe I will never recover, Dong Dong, please help me heal”
While saying this Ye Liu pulled her hand and put it on his chest where his heart was, Yu Dong could feel his heart thumping wildly and understood how much courage he had to summon to say these words. He was willing to change himself, and once again trust a woman despite being hurt by her.
Yu Dong suddenly felt a bit proud when she saw that Ye Liu was finally willing to step out of his shell. But when she stared at him, his black eyes glittering with a plea and some fear, his flushed cheeks and him holding her hand against his warm chiselled chest, she couldn’t help but think of a phrase -‘ innocence is highly seductive ‘
Ye Liu didn’t do anything, in fact, he was even shy to speak those words but yet it was a big turn on. Yu Dong licked her lips her mouth suddenly going dry, as she increasingly became excited because of the trusting gaze with which Ye Liu was looking at her. She, of course, found these masculine mers of her highly attractive even Chen Mi who has a bit of boyish charm to him, the three of them were charming because of their innocence in their own way. And yet if one of them was to seduce her like this, Yu Dong couldn’t help but think that there was something deliciously filthy about him.
Ye Liu leaned closer, keeping a firm grip on her hand and never once letting go, as he spoke in an undeniably enticing voice ” I’m- I might be not ready but I want this, I want to get close to you. Not as a husband alone but also as a lover”
Something stirred inside Yu Dong, she slowly extended her other hand and touched his face. When Ye Liu felt her get close, his body stiffened but he didn’t pull away instead he stayed put. Yu Dong could feel his hands getting sweaty as she approached him, his eyes fluttered like he wanted to close them but still kept them open, so as to watch her come close. Yu Dong kept on going though she knew that Ye Liu was a little freaked out.. She kept touching his face and then kissed the corner of his mouth.