Chapter 78: souls and worldly pleasures
Chapter 78: souls and worldly pleasures
——(POV Li Huang)——
Well, I knew that she had to find out something in this test and it was inevitable, but still, it was a bit of surprise for me that what I hid the most was the fact that I have my last life’s memories.
But if I think about it a little it is not that weird because I was always thinking about this and tried to uncover the mystery of my ‘transmigration’. If you look at it this way, the only possible outcome is this memory surfacing and showing itself in this test.
With this in my mind, I looked at Anjing’s eyes.
“Which question do you want me to answer first?” I asked her.
She was confused for a moment but soon remembered that she asked two questions.
“Of course tell me first what you saw.” She said with no hesitation.
Her response showed me that she was more worried about what I saw and if I’m being honest with myself, the second part of what I saw was something that one would be worried about.
But this also showed me something else, she didn’t put much importance on my past life memories. I almost forgot the fact that in this world remembering your past life’s memories is not something that is unheard of and happens every once in a while.
I was hiding it because I didn’t know who I was until a short while ago and also the fact that my last life was not on this planet or even possibly, in the same universe as this one.
Putting these thoughts aside, I got back to answering Anjing.
“..Well, I saw some of your past in the organization…” I said. She looked a little expectant of my reaction to those memories but seemed somewhat relieved.
I couldn’t help but smirk a little because I know exactly what she was afraid of…
“…There were also some memories that showed me you like me… maybe a little too much.” I shrugged and waited for her reaction.
The second part of the memories I saw started with our first meeting but soon evolved to Anjing’s possessiveness about me. Not that she wanted to dominate me, she was more like a guard that would stop everyone and anyone who would try to get close to me with ulterior motives, and by stop, I mean beating the shit out of them on multiple occasions…
As I said this she paled so much that she could pass off as a vampire.
“I..uh, well I…” Anjing tried to say something but she was unable to form a sentence as her mind was too chaotic.
If you just look at it from one point of view, it might seem that she is crazy or something but honestly, I can’t see it as anything other than Anjing being overprotective of me because she likes me. Then again, I can be biased as I like her too.
I wanted to tease her a little more, but she was on the verge of a mental breakdown so I stopped myself.
“I don’t mind it, it is just that you can be more open with it instead of hiding it.” I told her to ease her mind.
As if my words broke her last barrier, she eyed me with a resolute look on her face that just made me more confused. But soon I know why she was like that as she kissed me on the lips amateurishly. Maybe the fact that we were not in our physical forms also added to its simpleness but it showed her love nonetheless.
After that, she backed away after a second or two and was waiting for my reaction.
“That was pretty open, but I guess it would be better if we tried it again after we got back to our bodies.” I said and she just punched me on my head that didn’t hurt at all but helped her to hide her embarrassment.
“By the way, what did you see?” I asked her.
“Oh! You didn’t answer my question about your last life’s memories…” she said as she just remembered about it.
I nodded at her and started explaining.
“Well, I don’t know what you know but for the most part I don’t remember most of it now as I did on the first day but I think as I’m getting stronger, it is coming back to me…” I told her. I thought that I only forgot my name in my last life, but I don’t have any full memory of it and it is all scattered pieces of information.
I don’t remember the cultivation novels too. If I didn’t write about them in my ‘secret’ notes, I don’t think I would know about them much now.
Hu Anjing was attentively listening to me as I continued.
“…I think this happened as I remembered these memories when I am only at the start of the meridian formation realm so my mind is not strong enough to store this size of information so they are not distinct as of now.” I said.
“All I can say is that in my past life, I was not someone from here—meaning this world.” I shrugged as I finished my explanation.
“I didn’t say anything about it as I was struggling with my sense of self at the time…” I answered honestly.
If it wasn’t for this trial I might have been still struggling with myself about my self definition.
I now know that having your past life’s memory is seen as a favor of the heavens and people would disclose this to gain recognition. I don’t plan to tattoo it on my chest but I would be willing to let a select few like grandpa Lung, Yuan Jia, and Hu Anjing know about it.
If I can’t trust the ones who are closest to me, can I even call it closeness…
As I was thinking about this, Hu Anjing also was trying to digest my words.
After a few more moments she decided to speak again.
“I understand, thank you for telling me.” She said.
I come out of my reverie as I heard her.
“It is okay. What else did you see?” I asked her as I was really interested in knowing what she found out.
“Well, there wasn’t much more. Just some small things here and there.” She said with a mischievous smile.
‘So she doesn’t know about the [Peeping eye of heaven] or the training manual that I found here. It seems as I wasn’t actively hiding them and they were more of a trump card to me, the test didn’t detect them as what I was hiding and didn’t show it to her…’ I concluded. This coincidence is in my favor as I know about the dangers that this piece of information could bring all of us.
“Is that so?” I said. I wanted to know why she is smiling like that.
“Yes, I figured out that you are actually lazy.” She said cheerfully.
“What..?” It was my turn to be lost for words.