Imperfect Desires

245 My Sky, My Love, My Lifetime...

Dylan panicked... He completely lost his calmness.

And the first possibility that crossed his mind was; either she passed out somewhere or she hit her head and passed out somewhere. These two were the only logical scenarios to him. He tried to find her in the parking lot but of no avail. She was literally nowhere to be found.

Where the hell did she vanish?

"Don't tell me she went back inside to drink more?" Dylan thought out loud before running back towards the entrance of the bar.

Just as he entered, he heard a singing voice...

??Sunday morning, rain is falling

Steal some covers, share some skin

Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable

You twist to fit the mold that I am in??

Finding that sweet, soft, but a bit raspy drunk voice oddly familiar, Dylan took a turn towards the live stage built inside the bar. And just as he thought, he found Xiu up on the stage holding the mic in one hand and the alcohol bottle in the other hand. What he couldn't understand was why did the music band actually cooperate with her silliness?

However, it didn't take him long to understand that as she continued to sing...

??But things just get so crazy, living life gets hard to do

And I would gladly hit the road, get up and go if I knew

That someday it would lead me back to you

That someday it would lead me back to you (someday)

That may be all I'll need (all I need)

In darkness, he is all I see (all I see)

Come and rest your bones with me

Driving slow on Sunday morning

And I never want to leave??

Maroon5's 'Sunday Morning' wasn't an unfamiliar song to him. It was a famous song when he was a teenager. Obviously, he had sung it in his drunken stupor at least once in life. But that didn't mean he appreciated the way Xiu vanished without a word just to sing a song. So what if she was good at it? Although he didn't want to admit it, she really had good control over her voice as if singing like a professional.

As for Xiu, how was it possible that she'd be drunk and not sing a song? She loved to do this drunk singing just like she did when the infamous 'Wine Xiu' was introduced to Darren himself. Tonight was no different for her, she'd sing anywhere and anytime as long as you put alcohol in her system. But the song coming out of her would depend on her feelings. And since Dylan was reminding her too much of Chen Xiu, she ended up singing her favorite song as Chen Xiu.

Dylan was brought back to reality from his trance when everyone around him cheered and applauded for her. Meanwhile, Xiu being the superstar she placed her hand over her chest before bowing down slightly. As she straightened, she said, "This song is dedicated to Table no 13." Dylan and everyone around turned their heads while she continued, "Pretty lady, take that rose from your boyfriend. Before Rose take your boyfriend."

Dylan's eyes widened at her remark while she happily ran down to Dylan's side and looking up at him said, "I'm a good singer, right?"

Dylan cleared his throat saying, "You're just too full of yourself!" He wasn't gonna accept that she really was good. She was already up on her high horse, if he said anything, she might get wings to fly and never come down.

This time, Dylan held her wrist so that she won't get lost or distracted on the way as he dragged her to the car. However, she didn't get inside the car. Instead, she jumped on the bonnet to get on the roof of the car. "What the hell are you doing?" asked Dylan. He was really seeing all sorts of things today. What the hell was she planning now? It was already the night time, just how much more he had to deal with now?

Xiu laid down at the top of the car and pointed at the sky laden with stars, "I'm trying to see."

"What?"

"I used to be the star lost in the dark night, do you know what I'm trying to see now?" asked Xiu looking at Dylan. "I'm trying to see if this sky is beautiful or mine is. But I think my sky is the most beautiful. My sky who lets me shine like the brightest star in the universe."

"Your sky?" Dylan furrowed his brows.

"My sky, my love, my life and the one I want to make my lifetime..." replied Xiu in a sweet voice and Dylan shook his head at her for referring to Darren in such an exaggerated manner. "Do you know how much I used to hate night time?"

Dylan leaned against the car and asked, "Why? People usually love nights."

"But I didn't," replied Xiu and went on, "It was the time I used to feel like the loneliest person. I could fake a smile for the whole day, but I couldn't do it at night. And since I had insomnia, I couldn't even sleep my loneliness away." She tilted her head as she whispered, "I was pathetic, wasn't I?"

Dylan turned his head to look at her face and said, "I didn't know you have such a vulnerable side."

"Everyone has that side, even you do." Dylan couldn't argue with her remark. It was the truth, he couldn't deny himself. "I used to hate the stars as well, how boring it must be for those stars to travel in the universe all alone. They can't even deviate from their paths." She took a pause to chuckle saying, "But now I can brag that I have someone to accompany me. I'm not alone anymore. In this life, I'm not alone. I might not be the star anymore but now I have someone who shines brighter than sun in my life."

Dylan honestly didn't know what she was talking about. He could understand somethings while others he ignored saying that it was just her drunk talk. And it wasn't a lie, Xiu really was rambling about all sorts of things tonight. "Oi, what exactly my best friend is to you?"

Xiu sat up and answered, "He's the one I'd love to find my way back to... Over and over and over again. Just like I did in this lifetime."

Oddly, that's the kind of answer Dylan was actually expecting from her. How could he not? He had seen those two together. He knew how deep they both had fallen. If it wasn't cheesy enough to make him cringe, then how could he believe it?

"Honestly tell me, when you heard Dazi's interview, what was your thought?" he had been curious about that since the time he saw her crying in the afternoon because of the interview. He was really curious to know what she really had in her mind at that time.

"I had nothing in my mind," said Xiu and as Dylan lifted his brow at her skeptically, she added, "I just wanted to run to him. I hated the fact that I couldn't hug him, touch him at that very moment."

"Huh? Then why didn't you? Why did you drag me here to drink? You should have gone to him, idiot!" Dylan was hopping mad as for why he couldn't tell himself.

Xiu slid down from the car's roof and said, "If I ran to him, I know I wouldn't have been able to stop crying. If I had seen him at that time, I'd have honestly lost myself." And she mumbled to herself the later part, "And I don't want him to see me breaking down again."Please go to