Chapter 111 - Xiao Ran’s Hands
Chapter 111: Xiao Ran’s Hands
This red wine was more often used in various royal banquets in the palace.
When Lu Mo saw the cypress red wine, she felt suspicious. How could a salaryman like Li Xiaoran bear to drink cypress?
Li Xiaoran was half drunk and lost all interest when he saw Lu Mo. A hint of panic and resistance flashed across his eyes. He pulled out half a bottle of red wine from his mouth and placed it on the coffee table.
Lu Mo excitedly picked up a bottle of wine and said, “Senior, I’ll drink with you.”
Li Xiaoran refused firmly. “You know that my alcohol tolerance is bad, so don’t drink it.” With that, Li Xiaoran put away the red wine.
Lu Mo was slightly stunned, thinking that he probably remembered his drunkenness with Qiao An, so he was afraid that he would lose his morals with her after getting drunk.
Lu Mo actually hoped that he could take advantage of her like he did with Qiao An. However, a gentleman like Li Xiaoran was really rare in the world. After he made a mistake, he would forever remain sober and self-disciplined.
Just as Lu Mo was in a daze, the sound of a wine bottle falling to the ground suddenly came.
Lu Mo hurriedly ran over and saw Li Xiaoran holding three bottles in his right hand. The bottle in his left hand slid to the ground, and his hand was trembling violently.
For a surgeon, if his hands trembled, it meant that he had to say goodbye to the operating table.
Lu Mo looked at Li Xiaoran in disbelief. The expression on her face was one of unbearable pity and disappointment. “Senior, why are your hands like this?”
Li Xiaoran’s grayish-white face lost all its vitality. In fact, ever since his inexplicable fever the last time, his body had shown a series of symptoms of mental anxiety.
And the trembling of his hands was just one of the symptoms.
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Li Xiaoran thought that he could adjust himself through maintaining mental wellness. However, when Qiao An found out about him taking revenge on her, Li Xiaoran felt uneasy and his anxiety increased. Therefore, his hand became more and more serious.
The last time on the operating table, he clearly felt that his hands were not as agile as before, so at the last moment, he forgot to suture.
From that moment on, Li Xiaoran knew that he might have to bid farewell to the operating table.
Li Xiaoran was like a lifeless puppet. Lu Mo pushed him to the sofa and found a broom to clean up the residue on the ground.
When Lu Mo returned to Li Xiaoran’s side, Li Xiaoran looked at Lu Mo dejectedly and said, “Mo Mo, you saw it too. I’m afraid I can’t return to the operating table in the future.”
At this point, Li Xiaoran’s handsome face revealed a bitter smile. “For people like us who graduated from medical school, not being able to operate is equivalent to burying our career. In the future, I’ll be no different from trash. Momo, are you sure you still want to be with me?”
Lu Mo liked Li Xiaoran not only because Li Xiaoran was a genius, but also because of his heaven-defying looks.
Lu Mo hugged Li Xiaoran’s arm and said sincerely, “Senior, it’s fine if you can’t do it. Actually, my father wants to hand Jinghang Hospital to you. You can be in charge. When the time comes, you can also contribute to the medical industry.”
Lu Mo’s tolerance made Li Xiaoran inexplicably touched.
Compared to Qiao An, who naturally despised the poor and loved the rich, Lu Mo looked more sincere.
Li Xiaoran said gratefully, “Thank you, Momo.”
Lu Mo looked at the dispirited Li Xiaoran and sighed helplessly. Her heart ached for Li Xiaoran. She suddenly leaned forward and held his face to kiss him.
“Senior, I love you. No matter what you become, I will love you.” Lu Mo’s passionate feelings made Li Xiaoran momentarily at a loss.
However, Lu Mo’s determination to suffer with him had affected Li Xiaoran. Li Xiaoran forced himself to accept such a gentle and considerate Lu Mo.
Seeing that he did not resist, Lu Mo kissed him even deeper.
However, the fragrance in her mouth was completely different from the taste Li Xiaoran remembered. Li Xiaoran widened his eyes and pushed her away.
Then, there was a strong nauseous feeling… Li Xiaoran turned around and entered the bathroom.
Lu Moyu pouted. “Senior, you should see a doctor. You have a psychological barrier to women. This is an illness.”
After Li Xiaoran spat it out, he felt a little relieved.
Lu Mo’s words made him fall into deep thought. He didn’t have that obstacle before, at least not in front of Qiao An.
Lu Mo cried sadly. “Senior, are you going to treat me like this forever?”
Li Xiaoran’s heart softened when she saw Lu Mo crying. He held her hand tightly and said, “Momo, I’ll see a psychiatrist.”
Lu Mo seemed to have seen her savior and smiled through her tears.
After Lu Mo left, Li Xiaoran was in a daze for a while before picking up his phone and calling Huo Zhou.
Li Xiaoran’s voice was a little low. “Huo Zhou, find me a psychiatrist.”
Huo Zhou was clearly stunned. After a long time, Huo Zhou’s anxious voice sounded. “Has your depression relapsed?”
Li Xiaoran did not speak.
Huo Zhou said, “I’ll help you contact Mr. Jason immediately.”
Huo Zhou’s efficiency was godly. That afternoon, he used his connections to get a number for Jason, a famous psychiatrist. Huo Zhou accompanied Li Xiaoran to the Capital Hospital’s psychological department to look for Jason.
Unfortunately, he bumped into Qiao An who was conducting an interview with Dr. Jason.
Li Xiaoran bumped into Qiao An and was in a good mood. He did not notice that Qiao An was looking at him as if he was a panda.
“What are you doing here?” Qiao An asked Li Xiaoran in surprise.
Li Xiaoran was thinking about how to phrase his words so as not to scare her when Qiao An added, “Don’t tell me you’re here to see a psychiatrist?”
Li Xiaoran said awkwardly, “You’re right.”
He thought Qiao An would laugh at him, but she suddenly fell silent.
Li Xiaoran could actually see some concern in her expression. He teased, “Your heart aches for me.”
Qiao An asked him seriously, “Is there a lot of mental pressure at work?”
Li Xiaoran was stunned for a moment. Others thought that he was a divine knife, but no one knew that he was actually very nervous every time he went to the operating table to save the patient. This was because he knew that saving a life was akin to saving a healthy and happy family.
He didn’t want other children to live in an incomplete family like he did. Even if they were rich, they weren’t happy.
Qiao An said calmly, “Life and death are up to fate. Don’t force it.”
Li Xiaoran felt warm in his heart. He smiled and said, “Yes.”
Qiao An thought of something else. Mother Li committed suicide in front of the child, leaving Li Xiaoran with psychological trauma. As a result, every time Li Xiaoran mentioned his mother, he would be depressed.
Qiao An said, “Your mother’s death might not be a tragedy from another perspective. Although she died young, she must have gone to heaven and protected you every day. That’s why you can grow up well and study well.”
In the end, it was Qiao An who analyzed Li Xiaoran’s depression and anxiety very clearly.
Li Xiaoran suddenly walked closer to her and said, “There’s another reason…”