Chapter 192 - Word Never Been Sincere Enough To Capture Her Heart.
Chapter 192 – Word Never Been Sincere Enough To Capture Her Heart.
Feng Shufen was all stunned when he heard her first part of speech. Was she finally confessing her feelings for him? Was she ready to accept him now? At these thoughts, he felt the waves of happiness washing over his heart. But the very next words from her ruined everything.
"Sorry and congratulations on moving on from our fake relationship!" She said with a saddened smile surfacing her lips and just like that her tears dried up, leaving her with just a little puffy eye which did not make any change in her face.
Looking at her like this would have made anyone think that maybe she has fixed her amount of tears for her heartbreak and just as the stock ended she was back to normal, forgetting the pains she was feeling inside her.
Looking at her like that Feng Shufen's eyes became darker at once. Did she really congratulate him for moving on?
"What did you say? Was that so easy for you" he asked, his words hitting all clearly to her ears. And that was the first time she felt the pain in his words. He was hurt. Hurt because of something … something that she was not sure of. Or something that she did not dare to be sure of.
Lifting her amber eyes to match his grey ones, she tried to find out what was paining him but her efforts were to no avail. Those dark steely orbs were just trapping her more and more inside, making it unable for her to look away. It was asking her an answer though she was still unknown to the question.
"Ahh, there is nothing easy or tough in this President Feng. As I said, the relationship between us has always been fake from the first day itself. You have begun it yourself. And furthermore, even if it has been true then too I think that I have grown all comfortable with that pain already, enough that it won't have any effect on me for more than five minutes now. So whatever I said moments before, please ignore them. Those words do not hold any meaning", she said, getting on her best conclusion.
Her words sounded all confident like whatever she was saying has no ounce of doubt within.
Feng Shufen has not thought that she would compare her feelings with him with the pain she has received in the past. Though he knew that people do compare their present with their past but still seeing her comparing him with that jerk, Zheng Wenting, he could not help but feel the anger roaring in his heart, asking permission to unleash the wrath around.
Her words pricked him like several needles piercing his soul. He opened his mouth and was prepared to yell at her for being so hard-headed but then paused again, controlling the reins of his anger.
No, this was definitely not the side he wanted her to see.
Thinking all carefully and avoiding all risk, he decided to be all direct to her. Her overthinking and great skill of assuming things on her own was already making the things in their relationship get muddled. He just couldn't let that continue and make things between them more worse.
Taking a deep breath in, to calm the anger inside him, he got back at Li Xue. "Xiao Xue, look at me. We really need to talk. The things are not …" He started but Li Xue being stubborn did not let him complete his words. She has some fears still hidden in her heart.
"Haha … It's okay President Feng. There is nothing to explain. I can understand you and also the fact that business has always been important for part of men's life. I am sure that even if it was not me in the question … I mean our fake relationship in question rather a real relationship, then too, your decision might have been the same. Furthermore, Ms Kim is not bad. She has the elegance that matches to stay beside you. So I don't …"
She wasn't able to complete her words, not getting enough strength from inside to help. Her words simply do not make any sense to her own ears but she also has no idea what else she could say at this moment. She was trying her best to maintain herself but she was not sure when she would lose herself again. And above all that, his gaze was not doing any good to her.
Feng Shufen on the other side was also feeling miserable, something like he has never felt before. Never in his life, was he like this. No one has been as audacious as this woman to interrupt his words or actions.
Was this woman particularly testing his patience? If yes, then she was really great in her work as he was on the verge of losing it. Can't she already see it? It was becoming hard for him to keep his composure with her around.
Can't she see how much different he was with her? Wasn't it enough for her to know how serious he was for her? Then how can she just leave him like that? Like there hasn't been any importance to him in her life …
Her words were giving a sharp stabbing pain in his heart which he never knew existed in the chest for such feelings. He was growing irritated at her but at the same time was not able to bring himself to show it at her face.
Sighing in disappointment, thinking how miserable he has become, he said in a defeated voice which was even foreign to him. "Have I been so easy for you to pass me to another woman just like that? Seems like I have spoiled you too much to take me so much for granted."
Li Xue was taken aback at his words. What does that mean? Was he blaming her now? She looked at him and could not comprehend the disappointed gaze he was giving to her but that gaze was surely piercing her hard.
"You are not a pillow for me to pass, President Feng. And furthermore, it has been you who have decided everything, not me. It was you who has decided to end it; I am just helping you out with my best wishes. Why are you accusing me of all this?" she said getting a little infuriated at him. There is no way she would let him push all the blame onto her. She was not the one at fault.
At her words, his eyes became more icy, as the force of his arms on the wall became more fierce like it was intending to break it out of his anger. His eyes stared deeply at her in disdain as the words of frustration rolled out from his lips. "I never knew you would be so eager to jump on the conclusion that you will not even wait to hear me complete my conversation with her. Now I feel like my words have never been sincere enough to capture your heart or let you build trust in me. My promises has never been capable to assure you enough to believe me".