Chapter 1134 [Bonus chapter] So Unconfident
Chapter 1134 [Bonus chapter] So Unconfident
"Am I really not good enough?" Xia Zhao repeated his question again.
Mu Chenyan held his hand that was dripping from her head slowly and held it tightly as she stared into his eyes, "Zhao, even if I go against my conscience, I can't find anything wrong with you except that you talk too little. I have said a lot of things about you over the years but I have never called you a bad person. Good? You're more than just good enough for anyone. In fact, I think there aren't that many women who are worthy of you.
"You're tall, handsome, successful. You don't have any bad habits. You don't have any messy relationships. As you said, you're rich. So, finding anything wrong with you is difficult. You have all the qualities that a woman wants in a man these days."
"I'm talking about you, Yanzi," he interrupted. "I don't care about what others think. What about you?"
"Zhao, do you think I'm a match for you? Am I worthy?"
Xia Zhao covered her mouth instantly, "Don't talk about your worth. It doesn't suit you at all. As for being a match? Who said everyone is a heavenly match in the world? Relationships of some mismatched couples also work out. Why can't ours work out? In fact, I think we are a good match."
"Huh?"
"I'm silence, tranquil as the winter's embrace,
Yet you emerge, the essence of spring's grace.
I'm the muted notes, waiting to be heard,
While you, the melody, soar like a bird.
I'm the canvas, devoid of colors so grand,
But you, the artist, with a masterful hand.
I'm the winter, cold and serene,
But you, the spring, vibrant and pristine.
Together we dance, in this cosmic rhyme,
Silence and sound, in harmony we chime.
So let us embark on this wondrous quest,
Where silence and sound find perfect rest.
With you as my muse, my eternal spring,
Xia Zhao pinched her cheeks lovingly, "You're still just avoiding."
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We'll paint a masterpiece, our souls shall sing."
Mu Chenyan almost stopped breathing hearing him speak. She felt like she'd actually end up crying. This fool! In the end, he really touched her heart no matter how hard she tried to resist him.
"Have you been fooling me all these years?" she asked in a slightly choked-up voice. "Telling me that you don't know how to speak."
"But I really don't," he said. "It's just that I have a lot more words to say when I look at you. If you like listening to me, I'll try to speak more."
"Who likes to hear your voice?" she argued stubbornly. "Although you have a beautiful voice, I still have no wish to hear it every day for the rest of my life."
Xia Zhao pinched her cheeks lovingly, "You're still just avoiding."
"What am I avoiding?"
"You're finding all sorts of things to say just so that you don't have to confront your feelings for me. No, maybe you already understood it. But you love being stubborn in front of me and you're still insisting on it. Yanzi, this is about our life together. Can you put aside your mood swings for a moment and tell me your feelings? Didn't I already lose? I already told you I'm the one who fell for you. What are you afraid of now?"
Yes, what was she afraid of? Wasn't it just that she didn't think she deserved him? She called him the nemesis. How could she not know how good he was? But at the same time, she knew her own self too. She felt like she had made him suffer for the past years because of her weird temper. He didn't complain and he never will. Because he just never was capable of complaining when things involved her.
She was everything dark in his bright world.
"Stop thinking," said Xia Zhao. "Can you for once follow your heart? Just tell me what you feel for me. Is it really that difficult?"
"How can it be so difficult?" she retorted. "You're very easy to fall for, Zhao. Don't you know that yourself? Why do you think I always argued with you? Why did I insist on making you my rival? Wasn't that just me putting up defenses and reminding myself that you're off-limits? I kept telling myself that I couldn't fall in love with you. And I really thought I succeeded. But I didn't succeed." A tear slid down her face as she spoke, "You've always been perfect. Everything you did, you're good at it. Even if you wore clothes, they'd be without a crease or a speck of dust. You always looked like a glowing existence that could catch everyone's attention. I really didn't think I deserved to have someone like you." 𝚋𝚎ｄ𝚗ｏｖ𝚎𝚕．ｃｏ𝚖
Xia Zhao wiped her tear disstressedly, "And when did my Yanzi become so unconfident in herself?"
"Isn't it because of you? I always kept my distance from you only because you kept making me question myself."
"But it wasn't my intention."
"I know. I know you're born to shine. Yes, it wasn't your fault that you're so glowing. It's just like my Elle. Wherever she goes, she has everyone's attention. She is just that kind of an existence. Just like you. And that made you both seem like unattainable."
"But we are also human," said Xia Zhao. "No matter how good others are, they can never be you, Yanzi. At least, not to me. If they could, I wouldn't have blindly waited for you for so long. I told you. There is nothing and no one more important to me than you in this world. Do you doubt my words?"
Mu Chenyan shook her head, "I have no doubt."
"Good," said Xia Zhao as he leaned over and kissed her lips catching her off guard. Mu Chenyan's eyes widened and her lips parted. He took the chance to deepen the kiss as his other hand went to support her back and pulled her closer. Mu Chenyan was surprised but she didn't resist at all and even wrapped her arms around his neck.