Chapter 365 - Confession
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CHAPTER 365 – CONFESSION
He had never expected for that to be the outcome of this whole thing. He was just hurting that he lost the girl he final opened his heart to love and that had gotten the better of him and his jealousy kicked in.
"Li Jing."
"I love you Ye Cheng and that was why I chose to be part of this idea of yours without thinking much about it. It was because I cherish you and I wanted us to be again."
To a certain degree Ye Cheng was so caught up in her confession and was believing her words when a thought flashed to his mind. It was the memory of Her kiss with Tang Zixin. "And how am I to believe that?"
"What?"
"I saw you, Li Jing. I saw you on that day. I saw you and Tang Zixin kissing. I rushed work for that business trip all so I could come over and give you a surprise visit for valentine and spend the val with you but then I thought to get flowers when I was heading to your house, only for me to see you outside.
As he explained, Li Jing's eyes were filled with horror and pain. She did not need him to explain. She already understood what had happened. It was all too clear why he had called her that day.
"I wanted to see you so bad. It was heart breaking to see you had forgotten me and found him."
L Jing's tears continued to flow down her cheeks like a river. It was all her fault wasn't it.
"It was you who said we should wait and give ourselves time to be sure of our feelings. I was sure of mine and I wanted only you. I was waiting for your return to fully ask you out but then you couldn't. You were busy, only for me to come and meet that. You have picked him. I lost you. I accept the defeat whole heartedly, Li Jing."
"No, Ye Cheng. Please listen to me. That is not what had happened. Li Jing, believe me."
"What more is there to believe? I was stupid to open my heart even after Bai Qing Mei and fall in love with you."
"DO NOT," Li Jing yelled before lowering her voice and spoke calmly. "Compare me to her. I never hurt you intentionally and if only you would listen."
"Listen to what, Li Jing?" Ye Cheng yelled at her. "More lies?"
She shook her head at him. It was as though she was silently saying no to him. She needed him to believe her. "I didn't kiss Tang Zixin. I never did. He kissed me. We were going to get flowers for Aunt Lin Huilang and Yin Lifen but he came back with just one and declared they were mine. The next thing I knew, he confessed to me and just when I was to reject, he kissed me."
"Just like that?"
"I am telling you the truth Ye Cheng. I stopped it and decided to go home rigt after."
"But I called you and you refused to pick it."
"That was because when he kissed me, I felt so guilty. Even though we weren't a couple yet, I still felt bitter like I cheated on you and I was so scared to answer your call that very moment. So I thought to call you later. I was also planning on surprising you on valentine's day as well."
"Then what changed? Why didn't you come? Instead you refused to call ever again after that first day."
"I am sorry. But I felt you did not want anything to do with me especially after not returning my calls. And so, I got angry and I shut everyone out."
"Including me?"
"Especially you, Ye Cheng. It hurt so much. I missed you. I wanted to see you and then I got nothing. I felt you fund someone else and I just… I'm sorry. I know there is no excuse to what I did."
"I t killed me when I saw that and I flew back immediately while shutting my heart to everyone too."
"It was unfortunate that Tang Zixin and I had planned to see that weekend without any of us knowing if it was val. So when I found out, it was already too late to cancel as he had arrived. I was to come over and see you then tell you how I felt. If there was one thing, his kiss only confirmed that my heart longed for you and only you, Ye Cheng."
"I wish that was true."
"It is true."
"I doubt it." Ye Cheng closed his eyes and turned around. He couldn't bear t see her that moment. Just thinking about that day brought back all the pain and how much his heart had broken from it. "I can't. How do I believe you when you return and now you are always with him."
"You know nothing is going on between us, Ye Cheng. Please do not allow your jealousy cloud your mind."
"So what if I am jealous?" He turned around to face her, then raised his right hand and comb t through his hair as he bit down on his lower lip.
"I love you Li Jing. I thought that by killing my feelings for you, it would help but when you came, it felt like all my hard work had been thrown down the drain. All my efforts shattered."
"My heart belongs to you Ye Cheng."
"Seeing you, I wanted to run and hug you, pull you in close like I have always wished I could do and then I found out about your arranged marriage and instantly, I wanted to fix your worries. I told myself that was it but no matter what I did, I only loved you more and my heart ached each day that you were someone else's."
"It is not true. I do not belong to anyone else. I only love you." Li Jing's tears spilled out some more with her confession.