Chapter 194
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A beautiful blonde girl was sleeping at my side.
She was resting her pretty face over my chest while sleeping soundly.
Her emerald eyes were closed, sleeping completely relaxed.
Her hair shone brightly, with a golden glow like as light of the morning sun reached her.
And her body was… very beautiful as well! More than once, I’ve envied her body… But I am also beginning to find it like a fine piece of art by itself.
God, this girl is way too pretty.
Is she the incarnation of a goddess or something?
Her slender legs moved around the bed as her breasts pressed tightly over my torso.
Her arms hugged my belly while her face rubbed itself over my chest.
The sunlight suddenly reached her face as she slowly woke up due to the light of the sun.
“Good morning, sunshine,” I said.
“Ueh? Ah…” Emeraldine looked at me with a sleepy face, and her hair was actually a mess.
“Did you sleep well? You can sleep some more, don’t worry,” I said.
“Hmm… I am so comfy here…” she said as she hugged me even more tightly.
“You really like hugging a ghost like me, don’t you?” I sighed.
“You’re more than a ghost… You’re so squishy and soft…” she said.
“I-I am? Maybe it’s the lack of bones?” I muttered.
“Haha… M-Maybe…” said Emeraldine.
I’ve been thinking for a while about my situation with the people I am currently living with every day.
Aside from the problems regarding the rabbit-kin and everything, there’s also the problem with them.
Well, it is not really a “problem,” but it is something I had never suffered before, so it is very similar to a “problem” to me…
It is, of course, being… loved so much.
But I am still unsure… I’ve always been an insecure person when it comes to romantic situations.
I am not even sure of my own feelings sometimes because my mind is always filled with many thoughts everywhere. It becomes progressively harder to assess them and gather them together.
Ugh, I guess this is why a brain is very useful. It lets you sort out your thoughts.
But when you got only a soul for all your thinking, it becomes harder because a stream of thoughts is flying everywhere.
I end up needing many minds to assess all my thoughts, and that only make it progressively harder to achieve all I have inside of my minds…
Ugh… It is even harder to explain than I thought.
The thing is, I am drowned in so many thoughts, emotions, and a lot of this “hate” or “negative emotions energy thingy” that all ghosts have, so it’s harder to think if my very emotions are the sincere ones and not just the result of a spark of insanity within me.
But the last thing… when I spoke with Emeraldine, and we had such a cute night… I felt so happy.
It made me so happy to speak with her… to sense her feelings and learn more about her past.
It honestly… I don’t know how to explain it…
But it made me see her as someone so precious.
Ahh…
Is this love? Do I like her?
I think I do…
“E-Emeraldine…?” I asked.
“Hm?” she responded.
“Do you… do you like me?” I wondered.
“Eh?!”
Emeraldine was taken aback.
“Sorry… Was it too sudden?” I asked.
“W-Well, a bit… Have you been thinking about this?” she asked.
“For a while now….” I responded.
“Oh… Well, if it wasn’t obvious enough… Yes, I do like… I do like you…” said Emeraldine, only with a bit of shyness.
I suppose she had already accepted this long ago.
But I couldn’t help but feel embarrassed even more when I confessed like this.
“R-Really? You like a ghost like me? You know I am a dead person, right? Y-You know I will never be able to… give you all the things that a living being can, right?” I sighed.
“I don’t think so… Maria, you’ve brought to me way more things than any living person has ever done… In fact, I feel like you’re the liveliest and most charismatic person I’ve ever met in my life! It is very hard not to think about you… All the time…” said Emeraldine.
“Uwah… Do you really think about all that… of me? I feel like I don’t deserve it….” I sighed.
“You do… You do deserve it… Don’t worry…” said Emeraldine.
“Emeraldine… You… you’re also one of the people I have a hard time with… because I cannot stop thinking about you all the time… Even when I wasn’t at your side when I went out, it was very hard for me to not think about you… Or Partner… or Lucifer… I guess I hold you three very deeply within my heart… But now that I got you here… I can’t help but think that… I-I… really like you too….” I said.
“M-Maria…” said Emeraldine in surprise.
She grew redder and redder.
“I feel like I had to say it… I just couldn’t contain myself anymore… I was about to explode if I didn’t say it… You’re so precious and cute, Emeraldine… I cannot… I cannot help but like you….” I said.
“P-Precious and cute? Uwawawahh…” Emeraldine began to cover her face while rolling on the bed.
She was very embarrassed.
“Y-You didn’t expect that I shared the same feelings?” I wondered.
“I-I didn’t! I thought you just liked me like a friend, but… y-you’re saying it in a more romantic way… right?” she asked.
“Yes…” I said.
“Oh my god… Oh my god!” she began to roll again on the bed.
“Ah… C-Calm down… It is okay… I won’t do anything rash….” I said.
“I-I am not saying that because I think you’ll do something, I won’t like… In fact, I am honestly down for anything you could ever want to do with me…” she said.
“E-Eh? Th-That much?!” I asked.
“Yes…” she said, holding my hand.
“W-Well… I… I am still coming to think about these feelings… I feel like it’s not right if I hurry up and end up doing something that I might regret later… We could progress through this slowly, right?” I asked.
“I-I guess… Th-There’s no problem with me…” said Emeraldine.
“D-Do you have a problem with Partner and Lucifer? I like you, but… I also like both of them too… I feel like… I cannot stop liking them either….” I sighed.
“I-It doesn’t matter… I already know that you kind of did… Since I began to like you that I did… I am fine with it because they’re honestly my friends too… I want them to be happy as well…” said Emeraldine.
“Emeraldine… Thank you for… understanding this dumb ghost….” I sighed.
“B-But…”
Suddenly, Emeraldine got closer to me, very close. Her face was almost sticking to me.
“E-Emeraldine, you’re a bit too close….” I said.
“C-Can we kiss?” she asked.
“K-Kiss? Seriously? Isn’t that a bit too advanced?” I asked.
“I thought so… I guess we cannot yet…” she sighed.
“Lucifer and Partner would get so mad if they learned of this….” I sighed.
“Y-Yeah, I guessed so… Don’t worry about it,” she said.
Ah… If she says it like that, I really just want to give her a small kiss.
“Okay… come here….” I said.
“Eh? M-Maria- Muh?!”
Emeraldine was surprised as my lips touched her.
It was a beautiful feeling…
Ahh… So this is a kiss.
I have never kissed another person that I loved like this before.
It feels so nice.
It is so warm, soft, fluttering… like a delicious meal… a meal of love and passion.
The sound of our lips kissing could be heard around the carriage.
We ended up kissing rather passionately for more than just a few seconds.
When I moved my lips away from hers, Emeraldine looked at me with an enamored look that I had never seen before. She was red and breathing heavily. Her entire body seemed to be steaming as we stared into each other’s eyes.
“Hahhh… Maria… Kiss… Give me another…” she demanded.
“Emeraldine…” I said.
And I ended up kissing her again, and again…
Ahhh~
I can’t stop.
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