282 Shanghai Fest Arc (34) : Jin's revelation (2)
Jun blankly stared at him, the words which Jin just uttered hammering in his mind as if somebody was loudly beating a drum.
Bullet…?
Jin watched the priceless expression forming on Jun’s face and laughed. “What’s wrong? Are you wondering which bullet I am talking about? How could you kill me when I am alive at this moment right now? But I am sure you do know which bullet I am talking about.”
His eyes slowly widened as he was struck with the only realization that could explain this bizarre turn of events. “That’s…That’s not-“
Jin tilted his head, his vicious words stabbing Jun right through his heart. “The same bullet with which you took my life…in your past life.”
Jun froze. He couldn’t articulate what he felt at this moment. It was as if he was in the middle of a dark and dangerous storm from where he had no way to escape. His breath got stuck in his throat, and a suffocating feeling enveloped him from within. The mention of the past life from Jin made his body shiver non-stop.
“Jun!” Ai tightly held onto his arm and gripped it to provide her assurance.
Jin smiled. “I know it must be beyond your comprehension, Zhou Ai. A bullet, a past life where I already died once,…wouldn’t make so much sense to you. But it would make all sense to Bro Jun. After all, isn’t he also reborn just like me?”
Jun jerked his head towards him, his heart almost stopped beating in his chest. “Jin…you…”
“Yes, Bro. I thought I died when your bullet struck me. When everything turned black before my eyes, I felt myself floating in a never-ending black void. The next thing I knew I had come ten years back in time. So yes. I remember everything from our past lives just like you do,” he gripped his fingers into his palm, “I remember every single moment where you pushed me away. Where you refused to look at me. Where you said you hated me. And where you eventually killed me! I remember everything!”
Jin is reborn like me…?
Jun recalled everything that happened ever since he opened his eyes to his new life. But as far as Jin’s behavior was concerned, nothing struck him out of the ordinary. The only thing different was the fact that he hated Shui and showed an interest to date Ai.
Jin said, “Are you wondering how I know about your rebirth? Of course, I did. The moment you left the house, I knew you had been reborn too because if you hadn’t, then the timeline wouldn’t have changed. You never left to live in your condo in our last life, so why would you do that now? I became even more sure when Shui said that you broke up with her. It was impossible considering your obsession with her so the only conclusion was that you were reborn too.”
Jun raised his trembling hands and clutched his shoulders. His moist eyes let out a tear on his cheek. “If-If…Jin, if you knew that I was reborn then…why didn’t you come to me? W-Why didn’t you say anything to me? I…”
Jin took a step near him and spoke in a deathly somber voice, “What should I have said to you, Bro? That the brother you killed with your own hands was alive? That the brother you failed to kill got a second chance in life? You would have felt so disappointed that your most hated enemy vaas back,” he sneered.
He stared at him, stupefied, “Disappointed?”
“Then what else should I say!? Ever since Shui rejected you, you did nothing but hate me! You did nothing but cast me away! You only cursed my existence! Why? Why!? Why did you hate me so much when I…I kept begging you to believe me that I had no feelings for Shui!? I kept crying and pleading with you that you were misunderstanding me, but you never chose to believe me!” His eyes slightly reddened as he crumpled Jun’s shirt in his fist.
“You got so blind in your obsession that you threw everything important away from you! Just because of a single woman, you left your family, hated your family, you hated me and you hated the whole world! The…the kind Bro Jun who I always idolized had changed within a single night. You…” he gritted his teeth, “you had the kindest heart of all, but you behaved the cruelest to us all.”
Jun shook hard. The guilt and his wrongdoings of his past life which he was trying hard to bury in his heart, resurfaced as Jin shed light onto them.
Jin wiped his tears and chuckled. “Do you remember, Bro? I once told you that you should break up with Shui. I once told you that she wasn’t the right woman for you. But you didn’t listen to me. Instead, you got furious at me and stopped talking to me! Bro…I could see that Shui wasn’t into you. She didn’t love you the same way you loved her. And I just wanted to protect you! But you got so mad at me that I had to apologize to you. Because…I didn’t want to lose you. I didn’t want to make you hate me…” he trembled.
Jun felt it difficult to breathe.
It was the time when Shui had asked Jun for some space after her twenty-first birthday when he had proposed to her. He thought that Jin said so because…
“I didn’t say that because I liked Shui. I said that because I had understood that you would never be happy with her! You two were constantly fighting with each other, and I was disliking Shui more and more! How dare she think that your love was suffocating? How dare she push you away? There was nobody else in this world who could keep her as happy as you. You spent your whole childhood loving her and waiting for the day when you would marry her. But who was she to throw everything away? Who was she to reject you when you dedicated your whole life to her!?
That’s why I wanted you to end your relationship with her. Because she didn’t deserve you! If she found your love suffocating, then I didn’t want to see you with a woman like her who didn’t respect your love. But what did I get? Only your fury and nothing else!”