236 Difference un
“Bro, I’m not saying that I don’t like her. She is like my best friend, ” Lu Xuan said with a sigh. “I take extra care of her because she is behaving like she is the lost cat whose owner left her. I just want to show her that I’m a better friend than that asshole Nanxian. I lent her my shoulder to rest because she was asleep. I would have done the same for Teeny too. What’s the difference?”
“Right, there is no difference between Teeny and Xueyun to you?” Gu Shangyan asked him.
“No, ” Lu Xuan said. “I like someone else. To me that woman is the most beautiful and wonderful in the whole world. For her, I can do anything. Maybe, I’m in love.”
When the conversation was taking place, Song Xueyun was standing a little away from there. Yoona had shared her location. She thought of surprising Yoona and Gu Shangyan but who would have thought that she would get the biggest shock of her life?
Not making her presence known to anyone, she left the cafe, holding back her tears. It was only when she left the cafe and ran to the small alley behind the cafe did she burst into tears. She sat on the ground, holding her knees and cried.
She was never special to him.
She was so stupid to believe that she would be someone special to him but no there was no difference between An Xiulan and her to him. To him, both of them were safe.
How could he do this to her?
How could he fall for someone else when she loved him so much?
Was she not worth Young Master Lu?
Maybe, it was true.
However, how could she stop wanting the man who she had loved all her childhood? It wasn’t easy for her. It wasn’t easy for her to give up on him.
Why did she even think that there were chances that he could love her?
She must be deranged enough to think that.
After crying her heart out, she stood up while wiping her tears and walked towards the home. She didn’t tutor Han Zixin and walked the long way home just to let this loneliness sink into her skin. When she reached home, all traces of her crying were gone. She opened the door with a small smile and wished her parents.
“Yunyun, did you not take the pocket money that your dad gave you?” Mrs Song asked her daughter with a strict look.
“Mom, I have money, ” Song Xueyun replied. She had seen her mother’s medical bill and knew that her father was only left with a small sum of money after paying them and she didn’t want to take a substantial part from that money.
“Oh really?” Her mother scoffed, hands on hips. “Do tell me where you got so much money that you refuse to take a dime from your parents? Are we your parents or not? Don’t we have some responsibility towards you?”
Song Xueyun helplessly smiled. Her mother can be a handful sometimes. “Mom, all my school expenses are covered by the scholarship that I receive for my meritorious performance. I won a lot of cash princes in the contest I took part in. Not just this, Han Zixin’s grandfather pays me a good salary equal to that of a full-time tutor. His marks increased by leaps and bounds and I was even given a bonus.”
“Yunyun, it’s our responsibility to raise you, ” Her mother said in a soft voice. “I don’t like it when you work too hard.”
“Mom, it’s not my fault that I’m too extraordinary, ” Song Xueyun tried to be cheeky. “Plus, all I want is your company and love. I don’t ask for anything. Just love me as much as you can, please.”
Although she was trying to smile, she could feel her body trembling. If her mom hugged her right now, she was afraid that she was going to begin crying. She didn’t want to make her mom sad as the latter already had a very frail health. If she could, she would just hide her sadness behind her blank face.
Mrs Song could feel that something was not right with her daughter but she didn’t say anything. Maybe, Song Xueyun just wanted some alone time. Since she couldn’t do much, she decided to cook something simple but delicious for her daughter. A meal cooked by her mother might put a smile on her face.
Inside the room, Song Xueyun looked at the wall full of photographs. There were pictures of her with her parents and Lu Xuan. There were some pictures with Han Nanxian too.
She didn’t look at Lu Xuan’s picture but at Han Nanxian’s.
“Do you know how much I hate you right now?” Song Xueyun cried. “My heart is broken and I don’t have my best friend with me to fix it. I don’t need you to fix my heart, just come here and let me cry on your shoulder. Say, I have you. I can rely on you. Why don’t you say anything dammit!!”
“Han Nanxian, what have I done to not get my feelings reciprocated by the two boys in my life I care so much for?” Song Xueyun asked him. “For all these months, I have been trying to be an understanding friend. I have been trying to understand that your leaving was necessary but what do I do when I don’t have my best friend with me when I want him with me right now?”
Tears were trickling down her face as she pulled the photograph and threw it on the floor. “You broke my heart more than the boy I love. If we meet again, we will be strangers or I wish that we don’t meet again.”
Song Xueyun collapsed on the ground and her eyes were fixed on a picture on her desk table. In the picture, she was staring at Lu Xuan who was grinning at her. Maybe, it was all this picture’s fault. She made so many castles in the air that she couldn’t see that the king of the castle had another Queen by his side.