335 Life does not stop
“What kind of hope?” An Xiulan muttered.
“Gosh, she is still not accepting it. Is she?” Jiang Yao asked no one in particular. In an angry tone, she went on, “He proposed to you on the day you went to China to take the bar exam. I knew that it was a freaking romantic proposal and you froze like a …ugh! I don’t even know what to say right now. Han Nanxian showed me pictures. We all thought that you would say yes. The boy has been preparing for the day for such a long time but what did you do? You neither accepted his feelings nor denied them. Now you have the audacity to be jealous of his future wife.”
This was the moment when Jiang Yao had an urge to beat An Xiulan but she controlled it.
“You are scolding me, “An Xiulan said with tears pooling in her eyes. “He is getting married but he is being too nice to me. He took care of me when I was drunk. He prepared a warm bath for me. He helped me when I was vomiting even when he can’t see anyone throw up or else he would begin throwing up too. Now I know he will bring me chicken soup. I want to push him away but I can’t stay away from him. I want us to stay platonic best friends but when he treats me like an ordinary friend, it gets on my nerves. I want to be special to him all the time.”
“Baby, if I was near you, I would hug you, “Jiang Yao said in a coaxing tone. “But I will murder you after that too. You know the answer to his question and yet you are running away from it. You better clear this soon. Or do you know what will happen? He will begin withdrawing from you as he wouldn’t want you to be awkward with him. Do you want to lose your best friend?”
Jiang Yao could not understand how the dynamics of An Xiulan and Han Zixin worked. They said they were best friends but they acted like an old married couple all the time.
An Xiulan understood what Jiang was saying. That day in the rain, he left her there alone just like she had asked him to once but he called Shen Yue to pick her up. He would not hurt her but was ready to hurt himself if it meant she would always be happy.
“Close your eyes and imagine what your life will be if he is your boyfriend, “Jiang Yao suggested.
An Xiulan closed her eyes and whispered, “He cooks for me and feeds me.”
“Glutton, “Jiang Yao chuckled. “You love food and watching someone special to you feeding with their hands feels special, doesn’t it?”
An Xiulan nodded. Food was their love language. Gosh, did she really use the L-word?
“Can you see him and you having an ugly fight?” Jiang Yao questioned.
“We are always bickering but we never fight ugly, “An Xiulan said. “If we don’t like something, we talk about it. We don’t hide things from each other because it is impossible to hide as we can read each other too well. Fights occur because of secrets and we never hold any secrets between us. We are as transparent with each other as the word transparent can be.”
“Then, what are you scared of Xiulan?” Jiang Yao asked. “You guys scream chemistry from afar.”
pA n,dan(-)0ve1.c0m “What if it doesn’t work out?” An Xiulan asked. She had so many fears that she couldn’t even dare to voice them out. “Have you seen my parents? They divorced and are civil to each other only for their children. They used to be close friends but now they can barely stand each other’s presence.”
Jiang Yao nodded her head. She could understand her friend’s fears. She had been divorced once and she knew how much it hurt to go through this pain. She understood An Xiulan’s fears but one couldn’t let the fear conquer them. Life never stops and just one break-up or divorce never means that one should stop taking chances.
“I have another example, “Jiang Yao said after a while. “Your mother and stepfather. You said they were close friends?” An Xiulan nodded her head. “They loved each other but they never took the step because of so many reasons. They lost so many years of their youth. If they were brave, they would have been happy together for a long time. What if you and Han Zixin meet the future like your mother and stepfather, not like your mom and dad? There are so many uncertainties. You can’t know everything in advance. You have to experience it to know the future of the decision.”
“Yaoyao, I think calling you was the wrong idea. You made me more confused than I already was, “An Xiulan mumbled. “You are scaring me.”
Jiang Yao cursed. “I’m helping you find your love like in movies and you are criticizing me.”
“Did you find a new boyfriend?” An Xiulan questioned.
“Nope, I decided to remain single for the time being, “Jiang Yao said. Taking a small pause, she confessed, “Fine, these days I’m consoling Li Sicheng. Han Nanxian decided to go to China himself and put the responsibility of the Boston branch on Li Sicheng. Your friend thinks his boss played him. Can you believe how petty Han Nanxian is? To make Li Sicheng stay away from you, he went to China all by himself.”
An Xiulan smiled at her. “I told you many times that Han Nanxian is a bro-con but you never believed me. You know Zixin just has to like a thing and Han Nanxian will move the world just to get his brother that thing.”
“Their bond is envious, “Jiang Yao said.
An Xiulan sadly smiled. “To tell you the truth, there is nothing envious about them. They went through so much. If it was us, we wouldn’t be able to repair the rift in the bond. But Zixin and Han Nanxian stayed away from each other all these years because they wanted to repair their relationship. They gave each other time and worked hard to get what was taken away from them. They had a sad beginning but they turned their story to be happy in the end.”
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A/N: With this, we completed September’s win-win target! I might take a break if I couldn’t continue writing. Just pray that the possibility doesn’t come.