Chapter 191 - I...Love You
How could he be saying this? If he knew just how excited and happy she was that he kissed her, he wouldn't be saying any of these. Her face altered into an awful one and she raised her eyes to stare at him.
Thinking that she was irritated by him, and seeing the awful look on her face, Victor proceeded to apologize more. "Selena, please, I am really sorry. It's not okay that you've been avoiding me these past few weeks; it makes me sad. We use to chill in the living room every day? Now we don't. It just isn't okay. Please... please forgive me. I will never ever try such a thing."
"Vic...no! no! You're misunderstanding me. I am not angry that you kissed me okay. In fact, I loved it very much. I'm just angry at myself." Her voice became a bit pessimistic as she said her last words.
Victor's eyes fluttered a bit, and he gazed at her with a lost expression on his face. "Yo-you're not angry that I kissed... you?"
"Yes." Selena slowly nodded as she bit her lower lips.
"If you're not angry at me because of that, then why have you been avoiding me as though I have the flu?" He inquired, completely confused and bewildered.
Selena lowered her head and took a deep breath. "Victor, you won't...understand." She shook her head at him, and a subtle breath fled from Victor's nose.
"Can you tell me first, before judging if I can understand or no-" Selena's lips slammed against his before he could finish his words, and his eyes dilated in dumbstruck. What was happening?
She wrapped her arms around his neck and gently kissed him deeply. Victor, who was overwhelmed, cupped her cheek and took control, kissing her so deeply till she had to draw back to catch her breath. She breathed heavily and smiled at him. "Victor, I... I love you. I really do." She bit her lower lips as she said, and Victor stared at her in speechlessness, with dilated eyes.
"I...I." Victor's eyes fluttered as he didn't know how to reply to this, and a low, pessimistic breath left Selena's lips. "It's okay if you don't. You don't have to say anything. Anyways, I would like to sleep now, so you should probably leave." She stood up from the sofa and gestured to the door.
Victor's eyes blinked furiously, and he stood up from the couch, then slowly began to walk to the entrance with Selena following behind him.
He stepped out, and she shut the door immediately, then pressed her back against it and slid down to the floor.
Victor slowly moved towards the couch in the living room and sat down, then supported his head with his hands. What the fuck was he supposed to say? He's never been in love, and he's never taken any girl who told him she loved him seriously. Why? It's because he never saw genuine love in their eyes; it was all just fake words, but with Selena, he literally saw just how genuine she was. He could see it in her eyes and that was the damn reason why he was speechless. At the very least, this was the first fucking time a girl fell for him, and not just for his looks.
A soft breath left his nose, and he pinched between his brows. He abruptly stood up from the couch and walked to her door. Without even bothering to knock, he pushed the door open and a gasp escaped Selena's throat.
Victor's eyes fluttered, and he hurriedly stepped in to see her standing up from the floor. She turned around and their gazes met. Victor glanced at her face and his lashes flickered vigorously on seeing the tears in her eyes. "Are you crying? Why the hell are you crying?" He moved closer to her and grabbed her shoulder, then stared intently at her, waiting for an explanation from her. However, Selena did not utter a single word, but just kept quiet and lowered her head to avoid his gaze.
Victor placed his fingers on her chin and lifted her head so she could look at his face. "I am sorry if I made you cry." He smiled at her and caressed her cheek. "I don't want you to cry ever again, cause I love you too. I wasn't sure before, because I didn't want to end up hurting you. But I am sure now, and I really do." He raised her chin and slowly covered her lips with his. Selena wrapped her arms around him and he deepened the kiss, kissing her till she pulled away to gasp for breath.
A low chuckle escaped her throat, and she wrapped her arms around him, hugging him tightly. God!! This was a dream come true for her. She smiled cheerfully, but as though she recalled something, her face switched to a grim one. A downcast sigh escaped her nose, and she drew back from the hug.
Victor gazed down at her and gently caressed her cheek. "Is everything okay? Are you still mad at me?" He inquired, on seeing the awful look on her face.
"No...I am not mad at you, just that..." She nervously bit her lips, and cold sweats suddenly began to drip from her forehead.
"Just what?" Victor inquired, a bit bewildered by the change in her behavior.
"Would you stop loving me for any reason?" She inquired, and Victor drew his head back in confusion. "Um, no... that would be pretty hard because you're the first woman I ever loved."
"Then... can we go on a date somewhere private next week? I have something that I would like to tell you."
"Uh... sure, why not?" He shrugged as he replied with a smile on his lips, and she unexpectedly wrapped her arms around him, hugging him once again.
"Please... don't stop loving me no matter what I will tell you that day. Because I really, really want to be with you." She pleaded in a bit of a cracked voice.
Victor's face altered into a bizarre expression, and he couldn't help but draw her back from the hug. "Selena, what-"
"Please..." She embraced him back, and he slowly nodded at her with deep confusion in his eyes. "Okay, I won't. You don't have to worry. Okay." He hugged her back and tenderly kissed her forehead. "I.... love you." Damn, he will have to get used to saying this!