Chapter 549: Insecurity *
Chapter 549: Insecurity *
Making sure that no loud and unnecessary sound except for Saki’s sweet moans would be created, what happened between us tonight was gentle throughout. We both relied on feeling the subtle movements of each other rather than exaggerated movements that would make her bed shake or her floor creak and wake up her parents.
Although it hadn’t been that long since her first experience with me, Saki’s tight insides had already begun to take my shape, easing up my passage when I made her wet enough to receive me.
However, despite that, Saki’s reaction to it was more clearly felt than the first time where she also had to endure the pain of her broken hymen. It was more sensual that Saki had to keep her mouth closed by kissing me to stop her moans from coming out when I slowly buried my length in her.
That’s why even though I became too gentle with her compared to my previous experiences with the other girls, Saki felt and thoroughly savored our connection clearly, even whispering to me that it was more pleasurable this time with my slow and gentle movements.
Her fleshy and sloppy wet insides kept on squeezing me as if trying to keep me buried inside her.
However, one detail was missing for her. It’s the fact that she couldn’t see my face clearly.
According to her, she’s hoping to witness the same face I had earlier on the bus when Nami and Hina took their turns and helped me cum, bringing me an unforgettable pleasurable sensation…
She liked to see my expression when I was feeling good just like how the two girls did it.
Calling her silly for wanting to see that was probably an understatement. Nonetheless, I could somehow understand why she wanted to see that.
She’s settling on that kind of self-created competition. If she could also see me expressing how much pleasure I was experiencing because of her, it would lower down her feelings of inferiority.
Unfortunately, we better be careful tonight or we would get caught. Settling on a promise that the next one would be in a well-lit place where we wouldn’t be interrupted by anyone or we wouldn’t need to care about being found out, Saki gladly accepted it.
Minutes passed and because of how gently we were doing it, I eventually decided to lay down next to her.
It’s to prevent her from suffering because of my entire weight being pressed on her if we continued on the missionary position. Moreover, I was also about to feel numbness in my arms if I continued that way.
By switching to that kind of position, Saki and I comfortably rested our bodies on her bed, still facing each other.
Instead of stressing our whole body, I only asked her to raise one of her legs to give me passage inside her. And in this way, we could be more intimate making love without moving too much.
Apart from lightly humping our hips together, our lips would occasionally meet or our hands would feel each other’s upper body. While we’re connected down there, our upper body was also not neglected.
Slowly but surely, the pleasurable sensation leading to our climax continued accumulating.
From her neck down to her collarbone, I made sure to make her feel the pleasure from her sensitive spots alongside the thrusting of cock deep inside her.
In the duration of twenty minutes, I had her reach her climax not just once but twice.
Because she’s still not comfortable for me to cum inside her, Saki pulled my cock out and used her mouth to receive it, copying what she witnessed from Hina earlier. And this time, she improvised to eat by thoroughly sucking me until the last drop.
By the time she returned to my side, Saki had her cheeks bloated. But like Hina… she eventually gulped it down before asking me to wipe her lips of the leaks.
Although I couldn’t see Saki’s expression clearly, I relied on the affectionate tone of her voice as we both spent the last few minutes beside each other before my time to leave arrived.
“Ruki… I love it.” Saki whispered. Although she hadn’t said it directly, the girl was just too shy to admit it.
That’s why in response to her, I thought of teasing her while I began stroking her somewhat disheveled hair. “Hmm? What about me? Do you love–”
“Idiot… Don’t ask me about that.” She blindly pressed her hand to my mouth to stop me from completing my sentence.
And although I couldn’t see her clearly, Saki was surely blushing profusely.
“Is my Saki being shy right now?”
“Stop with the tease. Can’t I feel shy?” Saki snuggled to my neck and bit me. “Anyway, I felt it… The difference from last time. Back then, we both seemed too hasty in doing it…”
Ignoring the slight pain from where she bit, I also recalled our first time. And looking back to it… it was truly somewhat shameful. I lost to my libido and I ended up venting it all to Saki.
“That’s true… I’m… like at the end of my rope back then. At first, I just thought of relieving myself since you offered your body. But seeing how you seemed uncomfortable and in pain… I woke up… Although it didn’t ease you up completely, I tried to make sure that you would also feel the pleasure from doing it.”
Either way, if not for that occurrence, we surely wouldn’t be here this time. I wouldn’t go out of my way to follow her and invite her with us. Now… like I told her, I’m helplessly in love with her.
“Even so, that’s a memory between us, Ruki… Thank you. Not just for giving me all the chances I grabbed, but also for all the push on the back you’re trying to give me. I told you how I used to be a bully before but I never told you why I was like that, right?”
“Will you tell me? You know, you still haven’t heard my past but you probably got the gist of it from your interaction with them”
“I’ll listen to it next time. I want to hear everything from you. For now… hear me out… I am insecure so I bullied someone. I am aware of my inferiority complex. And that’s the reason I became a bully… Karma came back to me during middle school and I ended up being the bullied one, lowering myself further…”
“Everyone has their own insecurities, you know? Even me.”
Perhaps insecurity was also one of the roots of my desire. Or rather, I felt insecure towards those guys I stole a girl from. Especially to Ogawa. In the corner of my mind, I was thinking how unfair it was for him to be surrounded by girls by just flashing his protagonist’s aura.
Ugh… Thinking about it was making my blood boil again.
In any case, being close to my girls was curbing that insecurity down now… Feeling their love for me and how I returned it to them was enough to somehow stop that insecurity from leaking out.
“I am aware. But this is how I am, Ruki. Would you hate me if I told you that I am feeling superior knowing that you did it with me first rather than with Nami or Hina? This is how insecure I am… Can I still be fixed?”
“Honestly, it will be more unnatural if you don’t feel superior with that fact. As long as you don’t act to it like bragging about it to them then… you’re fine. As for fixing it… I guess you can. Even I am still positive that I can fix my desire, hopefully. That way… I can stop worrying all of you.”
“Mhm… I understand. I’ll be relying on you from now on.”
“Sure, and I will also do the same. If I run to you for comfort, don’t reject me.”
“Why will I? It’s a chance…”
“That’s right, chance-taker girl. I love you.”
“I love you too, big pervert.”
With our conversation ending here, we both exchanged another heated passion before I stood up to wear my clothes again.
The time to leave arrived and to make sure that we wouldn’t be caught, Saki would personally see me until out of their gate.
Although we probably looked like a crab from how we tried to sync our movements, successfully reaching their front gate wrote that off.
After saying goodnight to each other and watching her go back inside, I began my walk towards the station.
It’s a long night but every moment was something worth looking back at. I feel bad for the other girls who I failed to send home today so… by the time I sat down inside the train, I made sure to check on all of them.