Chapter 92 - 93. Home
"It is a flute," I explained, Naar was just looking at the box and looked bewildered. "You can play it to call the Manjis. I have made an agreement with them that they will always take care of you. So, you are now safe in their care." He was silent, looking at me with an expression I could not understand.
"I will be back to my own life, like before I came here. I want to let go of things related to this place. I never hate you or anything, so just don't think that I'm leaving because of you. If you don't want to take it, discard it. I don't need it anymore." I said before I left him without waiting for his reply.
I hated separation, but I knew this was not where I belonged and I did want to stay here either. I was a descendant of Youenha, a name I handed down from my grandmother. I was not a wizard or such a kind. I did not want to be like my father who sacrificed everything to get that position, and I just wanted to have a normal life, wake up in the morning, have breakfast, go to college or work, go home and sleep. Those boring activities turned out to be the ones I liked to do.
My room door was knocked. When I opened it it was Azalea together with Naar and Yoru. "How could you give such a dangerous thing to someone else?!" Said that woman, giving me that box back.
"You are the owner of those eyes, so it is up to you to keep it. it is not Naar, I cannot imagine what kind of destruction he would make over it!" She spoke loudly, piercing my ears.
"I don't want it." I said curtly, "I have done my duty here. And because Antonie has gone, I can go back to my own home, can't I?" I saw an expression that she did not take it easily, pushing me to stay here. "Youenha name is only a name I inherited from my grandmother, and the rest, I have nothing I can be proud of."
"I believe the other wizards won't allow you, either." Azalea tried to deny, "You are a part of us, Tha. Moreover, the new Elder Chief will be chosen. You should be here, at least to witness it, or whatever the reason is." She added.
"I have no power at all," I said, "Please tell me what I can do here? Tell me one reason only!" I felt frustrated to explain to them if I wanted to go back to my home.
"Tha, you have killed the strongest wizard and the master of illusion," Naar contributed, "I think you are human that is stronger than any wizards ever." He tried to convince me.
Somehow, I myself was not sure of my own. "It was a coincidence. Trust me" I cut it. I begged Azalea to allow me to go. That was it, as simple as that."
Today everyone gathered. To be honest, I was so afraid and nervous to be among great people here. They would discuss where I would stay because starting today I could not go out to the world out there freely and lived like common people. Although I was not a wizard, I had done things ordinary people could do, killing the leader of wizards and a master.
"I will go and stay at my old house whatever the decision you will make." I got up from my seat and was about to walk out of the room.
"Tha, you can't make a decision from one side only, you are part of us now." Rea was his name. He was a subordinate of Yon.
I looked at them one by one, then spoke up and stressed on some points, "I am not a wizard and I don't want to be like my father who sacrificed everything for the sake of being acknowledged by all of you. Besides, from a physical and skill capacity, I won't be able to stay here long. If I were one of you, it was just because my late grandmother used to be your leader. Please, I beg you all, let me go," Everyone kept quiet.
Azalea got up from her seat and walked toward me. "Please tell them that I won't stand living here!" She did not reply to me, just asked me to follow her and to walk to my room.
"Have you packed all the things you are taking with you?" She asked.
I nodded and sat next to her. "Thank you so much for allowing me to stay here and help me although it turned out that I messed things up," I did not feel comfortable with all the things I had done. Meanwhile, Azalea laughed out listening to my statement.
After laughing, she said, "I can't push you to remain here, but you must know that you are a part of us. Wherever you are, you can visit us here anytime," She asked me to be careful and she would send me a goodbye.
"Thank you so much," I thanked her.
We walked side by side to the portal. Along the way, we talked about so many ridiculous things we passed through. Such topics made us become so much closer, not like a boss and her subordinate but two best friends
"Be careful," She said, waving her hand when I was about to reach the portal.
"My warm regards for Naar and Yoru," I yelled before crossing the portal with Mickey.
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"Are we going to your house or your old house? Mickey asked when we were walking along the forest together.
"So you can read my mind too?" I was planning to go back to where my birthplace was. I planned to get a job, register for my studies next year.
"Mommy asked me to live in that house or she would sell it," we finally reached the main street, turning at that cat. It looked like he got fatter.
"Are you okay now?" asked Mickey while running to keep up with my footsteps.
"I felt nothing when I was there," I was being honest, "When I visited my old school to take some photos I felt much better than the first visit. Even when the old memories came up all of sudden and pretty intensively, it did not disturb me at all. So, I guess I will be okay if I live in my old house," I tried to convince him.
We were waiting at the bus stop located not far from the souvenir shops. This public transportation would take us to my present house because I had packed all my stuff before leaving and I planned to leave it empty instead of renting it to someone else. While waiting, I ate my food given by Azalea's maids. Although Azalea asked me to visit her place anytime I wanted it and I was quite happy to live there, I would rather not go back there.
"Don't you want to meet your mommy, Tha?" Mickey suddenly raised that question.
Honestly, I wanted to meet her but it was kind of hard to do that when my head was still full of emotion. It would make us end up in a fight. "She had asked me to live in that house long ago. She ever wanted to sell it when she had to live with grandmother. My brother stubbornly refused to live there," I finally replied to him but it did not mean to get hold of my heart.
Not long after that our bus arrived. I chose a seat by the window because I wanted to watch the rain. I might not see it again for a long time.
"Do you have any plan where you are going to work when you are there?'' I was stunned because it hadn't crossed my mind before Mickey questioned that.
"I will try to send a proposal to a store not far from my house, or anything I could do to survive," I was quite doubtful. I did not want to be dependent on my mother. Working for Emma would be best, but I knew I could also not rely on Emma all the time.
Arriving at home, I packed all my stuff. I hired a moving house service to help me remove all the stuff I would take home to save my time and energy. I also contacted Erick and told him I would live in that house.
"Tha, are you serious about moving out and living here?" that sharp mouth questioned me. He seemed to be so surprised. "It is not a prank, is it? I am afraid you will only stay here for a few days then leave and say 'I got things to do there'." He chirped on that far end. "That is your habit to come out of the blue and then leave just like that.. So annoying."