Chapter 411: Control
Chapter 411: Control
Lana felt Liam's grip on her hand tightened.
"Home? Which home? The one that you left a year ago? Whom do you want to meet there? What do you think of us all? A toy that you can just leave behind and pick-up again whenever you want?
Lana Huang, whatever happened that day was not the fault of any of us, we all cared about you. You're not the only one who lost everything back then. I was as much broken as you, by all that happened and I was waiting for the day we could be each other's strength during those tough times. But you chose to quit..." Liam grumbled as he tried his best to remain calm and not to stutter as the emotions he had kept inside were now surging out.
"I know, it was so wrong of me. I'm really sorry. I will do everything you want me to just let me come back with you." Lana whispered, trying hard to suppress the tears that had started to cloud her eyes.
Liam's car stopped in front of him and Liam opened the door of it.
"Go inside??? Tell Andrew where to take you." Liam coldly said.
Lana bit her lip and whispered, "It's okay. I brought my car. I'm staying at my apartment."
Liam gave her one last look then said, "Alright, then I will go ahead first…"
Lana watched him go inside the car. Tears fell from her eyes as she watched the car move away from her sight.
She could see how mad he was at her. She felt it in every word he threw at her. His coldness towards her was terrifying. She regretted her decision to leave but if she hadn't gone away then, she was not sure if she could ever have healed herself from the pain and the trauma she was going through. Being alone made her come to terms with all that had happened and helped her heal, during those times she was away, she dealt with her pain and made sense of it.
There was a burden in her heart whenever she looked at Liam or tried to be intimate with him after her mother's death. She tried her best to overcome that state of her mind but failed and the greatest irony was that she could not tell that to Liam and make him feel guilty because she knew he himself was in immense pain because of her mother's loss.
It was not his fault that her mother chose to save him, but if she told Liam what was going on in her mind at that time she knew she would have only made the situation worse. Liam was already in a lot of guilt and he would have ended up blaming himself, had he witnessed how she suffered due to his presence around her.
While she was away, she managed to let go of that trauma and heal herself, overcoming the burden she felt realizing that her mother was dead, but it took her so long. Now, there was nothing that was painful in her heart. The pain and that heavy burden were already gone. She could be with Liam and be at ease.
And the moment she saw Liam after she came back, her heart felt so full and all she could feel was regret… the regret of leaving him behind… Lana wiped her tears and tried hard to compose herself.
"I guess I deserve to suffer from his coldness..." she whispered, still wiping the tears from her eyes as she walked back to the parking lot and went inside the car. She realized she would need to work hard to win him back. She would need to gain back everyone's trust bit by bit.
She had already shown her presence to Liam… And now she was planning to visit Miley in her office and meet her too. Lana went inside the car and started the engine. She paused for a while and gently touched her swollen lips.
Liam bit her lip but it does not hurt at all, what hurt her was in fact the look in his eyes, for her. She saw hatred against her...
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Inside Liam's car, Andrew sneaked glances in the rearview mirror. Was he mistaken with what he saw? It was clearly madame Lana with just a different hairstyle since her hair was longer now, compared to its shoulder length before.
"Focus on the road Andrew…" he heard his Boss instruct so he stopped himself from looking at him through the rearview mirror.
"Noted Sir." Andrew quickly answered. He wondered what would happen now but then focused his eyes on the road because he was too excited to report what he witnessed to Sir Jorge and Senior Sy since he was tasked to report anything unusual about Sir Liam from the moment madame Lana left.
Liam touched his knees, which felt so weak a while ago. He moved his back and settled his neck on the headrest of his seat. He closed his eyes as his hands balled into a fist.
He wanted to go back and pick Lana up. He wanted to tell Andrew to turn back for her but he tried his best to control his raging emotions and his longing for her. He must control himself with all his might.
Liam heaved a long sigh. He could still feel the touch of her soft lips lingering against his.
"Damn! Stop the car." he cursed loudly in agony. Andrew immediately stopped it at the side of the road.
"Sir?" Andrew asked, wondering if he should take a u-turn to go back, hearing his boss cursing as if he could not decide what to do. He presumed the Boss was having a hard time deciding whether he should go back or not.
Liam released a frustrated sigh before he instructed, "Continue driving to the office…"
Andrew shook his head because he could feel how torn his Boss was in giving orders on where to go. He sighed as well, hoping it would be the final instruction from his Boss.