Chapter 345 - The Mafia King Begs Lihua
Chapter 345 – The Mafia King Begs Lihua
Wei's hands shook as he clenched his trousers. He couldn't say it. He couldn't admit that he had killed Jia.
"Tell me, Wei. Is sis Jia really dead?" Lihua blankly asked.
There was a tiny hope in her heart that he would disagree. Even though Mo Huojin and Xia Nuan had already confirmed this. Even though Shen Yang's hesitation and silence had already given her the answer, she still held hope that maybe she would be wrong.
Lihua said, "Wei. I am….tired of this silence. If you have ever loved me even a little bit, please say something."
Wei trembled.
"I prefer it to be the truth this time…"
Wei climbed onto the couch and rushed into her hug. "I-I…I am really sorry, Lihua. I… Please don't hate me… Please Lihua…I had n-no choice. I di-didn't want to kill her. Really…But…"
The last ray of hope from her eyes faded away. She looked like a soulless doll. She couldn't feel anything in her heart.
So blank and empty…
She could feel Wei trembling and holding tightly to her as if he didn't, then Lihua would disappear.
"Please Lihua, I beg you… Don't hate me. I-I can't live without you. Don't leave me. Don't hate me…" he squeezed her tightly in his arms. His chest heaved up and down as he buried his face in her shoulders.
"I will take any punishment you want to give me. I-I will do whatever you want," his voice quivered and choked, "Slap me, hit me…beat me however you want. But please Lihua… Please don't leave me."
Cold sweat was trickling down the side of his cheeks and he had difficulty in breathing.
Lihua slowly put her palms on his chest and pushed him away.
"You…you say that you killed sis Jia…You killed someone precious to me and you want me to…not hate you? Not leave you?"
He trembled.
"At this point, are you… really thinking about only yourself?"
"N-No!" He quickly shook his head. "I just-"
"You just what?" She looked at him, feeling utterly stunned. "I have lost my sister forever and you…only want to protect your happiness?"
Then she burst into a peal of sad laughter as something struck her. "Oh. I was wrong. I-I cannot expect you to understand my feelings because you cannot even understand your own."
He froze.
"I…I tried hard to make you feel and understand emotions. But I failed," she lowered her head and trembled. "If I had not then, y-you would have never erased my memory to make me forget her. You did that only so that you could protect yourself. Just like you are doing right now. Jiang Wei, who gave you the right to steal my sister away from me?"
He paled.
"So what if you had trouble understanding emotions? Who gave you the right to kill my sister!?" She grabbed his collar and her empty eyes lit with the fire of anger. "Who gave you the right to seal my memories!? You-you first killed my sister…then you killed Song Lihua too. Why? Why did you do that!? Jiang Wei, how could you be so utterly selfish!?" She screamed.
Wei's quivering hands touched hers. "Lihua…I didn't want to lose you…" his wet eyes let out the tears that he had been holding in. "I didn't want to make you hate me. I-I was really afraid that you would never forgive me. You will hate me…I didn't want that. I killed Song Jia, the sister you love so much. If you knew that she was investigating me and I killed her then…" his breaths turned ragged. "S-So…I couldn't think of anything else. If you forgot about her, then you would never think about her and you will never leave me. I love you so much that I cannot bear to lose you. You gave me the happiness that I was searching for years. I didn't have the strength to let you go."
Lihua said nothing.
"It was impossible to make you mine until Song Jia was there in your life. I-I was scared Lihua…the more I spent my time with you, the more I got attached to you. I didn't want to let you go at any cost. You brought so-so many things into my life that I never saw before. That I never felt before. I became greedy. I wanted you to be by my side forever. Please forgive me Lihua…" he rested his head on her hand, "I didn't want to hurt you. I can never think of hurting you. I just… want to spend my life with you forever."
Lihua tilted her head. "And you think that there is a future between us after you killed my sister?"
He froze.
"Why did you kill her, Wei? Why? Why would you kill her? Sis Jia was never anybody's enemy. She was kind and strong. She only thought about others' well-being before her. A-and she was everything to me…Then why…" her shoulders drooped back, "why did you snatch my everything from me?"
Wei said nothing.
Tears pooled in Lihua's eyes, and she clutched her chest. Memories came flowing into her mind about the time she spent with her sister. The warm days with her that they spent in peace and joy.
And now, they could only be memories because Jia was never coming back.
No…I-I really lost her?
She trembled hard.
Sis, I would never see you again? You will never come back? No…sis, you cannot leave me…
What will I do without you? I-I cannot do anything if you are not by my side. I only came this far because you had my back. I was waiting for you sis…
"I was always patiently waiting for you…" she mumbled as tears fell.
Wei raised his head and panicked, seeing her hyperventilating.
"She has to come back. I am still waiting for her."
"Li-Lihua…"
"She will come back. I have so many things I have to say to her. Who will listen to my chatter if not her? Who will cook a delicious meal for me when I feel down? Who will pat me to sleep when I am feeling sad?"