Will of chaos

When we arrived at Lilian’s house, we were surprised by the size of the place, but I was more surprised by the people who worked for her.

After the introductions we were taken to the guards that we will be occupying for the time we will be here.

During the night I went to see the starry sky, something that never tires me, somehow this habit I acquired since I cursed in this world helps me to think more clearly.

Because of that my mind turned to that cat girl, she seemed innocent and kind to those who didn’t pay attention, just as my companions were able to see right through her using different points of view, I have to remember to always try to see beyond of simple appearance.

Appearance can be manipulated in many ways in my old world, in this world there are even powers capable of completely transforming someone’s appearance, more and more I am reminded to always see deeper into things.

I close my eyes remembering the naive characters who traveled to another world to live adventures in the stories of my old world, the truth is that it always seemed wrong to me how simple things were.

Now I understand better, a world full of magic like this has many adventures, but there are dangers everywhere, those who think that monsters are the only danger will live little.

The environment can kill someone, people can kill someone, and sometimes the person himself can run towards death without realizing it.

In this world, people’s lives are less valuable than I’d like to admit, killing criminals here is not wrong, it’s actually encouraged, and we might even get a reward for killing wanted criminals.

But the same goes in reverse too, criminals kill people more easily and with less reason, wars happen with great frequency and entire Kingdoms can cease to exist leaving ruins behind.

“Why are you up here alone?” (Nix)

“I’m seeing the stars while I think a little.” (I)

“Please say it’s not a reflection on you anymore.” (Nix)

“…” (I)

Sigh

“You should stop thinking so much master, just do it your way as usual.” (Nix)

I open my eyes as I think about what Nix said, but the truth is, I can’t make things that simple, we often don’t control our thoughts and there’s something that has always bothered me.

Before coming to this world I never hurt anyone and I never wanted to, but since the first day with Leech I have been killing more and more, whether monsters or people.

The truth is that I don’t feel guilty or sorry for what I did, I had the vague idea that killing was something difficult that marks you forever, but everything was so easy, too easy in some situations.

Only after a long time I realized that the brand was already there, I just couldn’t see it, it was changing my mind little by little by discarding naive concepts to give way to ideals that help me survive in this world.

For a long time, I heard that Outsiders who were born into this world in monster bodies go crazy due to the instincts that monsters have, I know I have those instincts, indeed I can feel it all the time, they are part of me.

I thought I had these instincts under control, but it seems like I was more affected than I’d like to admit, I still don’t think everything I did was wrong, but I’ve reached the point where even these changes of mine are becoming normal for me.

I am further and further away from that person with a weak body who spent years lying in a hospital bed.

“Thinking about myself helps to be sure of who I am.” (I) ｂ𝚎ｄｎ𝚘ｖ𝚎𝚕．𝚘𝚛𝚐

“Everyone knows who you are, the King of…” (Nix)

“I’m not talking about that, I mean it helps to accept the big changes in my mind, I’ve been in this world for less than 2 years, I’ve experienced many different things, and everything I believed to be right has been destroyed time and time again.” (I)

Just as I look back at the naive person in the hospital bed further and further away, I also look forward in fear of what I’ll see if I continue on the path I’m on.

“Here, drink this and stop thinking, Lilian is preparing a feast for us.” (Nix)

“Huh…” (I)

Nix shoves a bottle of booze containing magic into my mouth, I could resist but I just drank it all, the booze was amazing and made me a little dizzy showing it to be high quality to overcome my poison resistance.

After that Nix pulled me inside the mansion straight to a dining room with many different types of food on the table, seated at the table was my group counting on Lilian and her staff.

———–

After an amazing dinner, I knew more about the families that live here in Lilian’s service, they were all involved in the crime in some way and were in a situation where the whole family could die, but it was in this moment of crisis that Lilian arrived to save them.

These three families were under her protection which ended their problems and helped them find new jobs while also talking to them about becoming her subordinates in this town.

Everyone talked it over to discuss a deal they all agreed to, then signed contracts that were presented to the God of Commerce, so no one would dare break the contract.

It was Lilian who spoke about it as these people looked at her in disbelief for revealing a secret from these families and from Lilian.

Then she said she must have realized that we are trusted by for Lilian and they became more talkative as everyone talked.

———-

After eating I let Nira, Ivan, Samira, and Erica out, I also let my children Irius and Irina out of the Dungeon, they all left the shadow Kinshasa accompanied by a Fairy or a Spirit.

In the morning Nira and Ivan will be heading to the Trade Guild, Irina and Irius will now go as guards for these two, they may not be the strongest, but they are more sensitive and trained to recognize subtle things than most.

Nira will be responsible for making these deals for the shops in the Commerce Guild.