Will of chaos

“The name of this class will be, Definition of Justice for Idiots and you will be my first student, I also hope you will be the last.” (I)

I still can’t believe this idiot came all this way for such an idiotic reason, how does he not notice something so obvious?

“Follow me.” (I)

“Where are we going.” (Alan)

I look at him before getting up and heading towards the door beckoning him to follow me, I’m tired of being in this room.

If you’re going to have that kind of philosophical teenage talk, let it be with a pretty view at least.

I go to the outside of the Floating Ship, open it, then jump onto the sails where I sit leaning back as if on a tree rooster while leaning back on part of the sail, the Hero of Justice sits a little in front of me looking at me.

Before saying anything I look into the distance, and I can see the 3 Ships of the Church of Light that we defeated today, by the lights I know that it is still being dismantled, it seems that Nicole wants to take everything she has.

“Why did you want to come here?” (Alan)

“Because your question was kind of stupid, that’s the kind of thing that anyone knows without asking someone else, or at least I thought so.” (I)

I look at the sky, unfortunately, today is a little cloudy with clouds, it must rain these days I think, and because of that, only some parts of the starry sky are visible along with 1 of the two Moons.

“Your earlier comment is wrong on so many levels that I needed some fresh air before saying where you’re going wrong.” (I)

“For starters, you’re overthinking something that comes naturally, that’s the main problem.” (I)

“What do you mean thinking too much?” (Alan)

“What you call justice has many names, personal rules, character boundaries or right and wrong.” (I)

“Each person has their own definitions about these things, but to live with other people you have to accept certain basic rules, that’s how laws came about, unfortunately, that’s also how some people started using those laws to manipulate people, but I digress now.” (I)

“As I was saying, you complained that unlike me who have my own ‘righteousness’, you only follow what others have taught you, right? I think I’ve summed up the whole conversation beforehand well.” (I)

“Yes, basically that’s how it looks to me, but apparently you think I’m wrong.” (Alan)

“You are wrong.” (I)

“You are looking at what I am today and not seeing or thinking about who I once was.” (I)

“I’m an Outsider you idiot, I died at over 40 years old in a world where I was trapped my last years in a bed with difficulty even maintaining my consciousness.” (I)

“My world didn’t have magic, Ki, and Spiritual Energy, it also didn’t have monsters or other races, the only race was Human.” (I)

“So it must be a very peaceful world and without discrimination, since there were only Humans, this is the dream of the worshipers of the Church of Light.” (Alan)

“A naive dream, my world might not be as dangerous as this one, but it has had a history full of, some for very silly reasons.” (I)

“I don’t really want to talk about discrimination, the truth is that there will always be people to discriminate against others, if not by race as in this world, it will be by skin color, gender, sexual orientation, age, nationality, wealth, fame and a motto of other idiotic things.” (I)

“I, who had a weak body since I was a child, had a peaceful life even as an orphan, my life was not easy, but nobody’s is.” (I)

“When I arrived in this world, the only thing I brought with me was what was in my head, that includes the beliefs and “Justice” of my previous world.” (I)

“Things I was taught by others or led to believe were right, just like you were.” (I)

“But unlike you who grew up in a safe and controlled environment where everyone around you played by the same rules, you never had reason to look twice at it.” (I)

“I was born into this world in the middle of a forest full of monsters as a mere Leech, my first meal was another Leech who could probably be considered my brother, that’s not even considering how panicked I was that everything around me was strange for me.” (I)

“My journey has been filled with near-death situations and I’ve broken just about every rule I ever believed was right, all in order to survive.” (I)

“The first person I killed was a bandit, you know what I thought? I remember thinking how easy it was, killing a person shouldn’t be so easy.” (I)

“Over the days, weeks and years I spent in this my experiences forged what you call “Justice”, it may have started out as something taught by others, but over a lifetime you learn what is right for you.” (I)

“This is something that every elderly person knows, with every difficulty you go through in life, this “Justice” will be hammered again and again, what remains, in the end, will be what you are looking for, your own Justice.” (I) 𝙗𝒆𝒅𝒏𝙤𝒗𝒆𝙡．𝙤𝒓𝙜

I spoke every word looking into his eyes, I gave examples from my own life for him to understand, the truth is that I don’t care much about him, but maybe that’s one of the habits of when I was in the orphanage, I can’t see someone lost trying to find a way without extending a hand.

He may be an idiot but he’s not an enemy, I also respect his work to help people, as long as he doesn’t keep pissing me off I can consider this conversation as an exchange of experiences.

I look at him to see how he took everything I said, I can see in his eyes that he’s thinking about everything I said but he won’t come to a conclusion now, this is the kind of question you think about your whole life, I myself still think about it in hopes of not straying too far from the correct path.

“How do you define right and wrong? Where to draw the line not to cross?” (Alan)

“These are good questions and I wish you the best of luck finding the answers, as they are things only you can answer.” (I)

“But let me say my point of view, right and wrong or good and bad, it’s often a matter of views.” (I)

“If you consider white on one side and black on the other side, then say which side is good while the opposite side will be evil, do you know what’s left in between?” (I)

“A gray line not to be crossed.” (Alan)

“Wrong you idiot, a gray abyss we all live in, good and evil are extremes, what’s in between is almost all there is, but that’s something I believe, feel free to find your own answer.” (I)

I jump on the ship’s sail and go inside to hunt for something to eat in the kitchen, that is if I can find the kitchen.

“It was a beautiful speech, master.” (Nix)

“No, it was awful and clichéd, but it still makes sense to me and it should work for him.” (I)

“Now let’s move on to more important things, where is the kitchen? I’ve run out of food and I’m hungry.” (I)

“I’ll guide you through here.” (Nix)

I start to follow Nix out of my shadow as I think about what I’m going to eat.