340 A dream?
“You will say you loved Lu Xuan. Can you recall a single time when you were with me discussing your past, present and future and involving him in them?” Staring at her, he shook his head and said, “No, right? He was just a crush, Yunyun. We had a past, we were dreaming for the future together and even at present it’s me confessing to you. It was never him but you don’t want to understand.”
Han Nanxian cupped her face tenderly and said, staring into her eyes. “Can you imagine holding my hand and spending the rest of your life with me?”
Song Xueyun blinked her eyes. Was it bizarre to say that she had dreamt an entire life with just him? It involved nobody but just the two of them. And she dreamt about it all her life.
“Can you imagine us with toothless grins and grey hair chasing sunsets and sunrises?” Han Nanxian questioned.
She didn’t know why her eyes felt moist all of a sudden but all these platonic dreams involving her best friend didn’t sound very platonic right now. All these dreams she saw with her best friend Han Nanxian.
“Why did you not say anything before?” Song Xueyun asked in a cracked voice.
“I was a sick boy. I didn’t want you to go through the same thing that you went through with your mom, “Han Nanxian whispered. “I’m still afraid. What if my illness comes back? I should keep these feelings inside me. But there is another fear inside my heart. If the illness doesn’t come back and I live a healthy life, I will be regretful all my life that I didn’t even confess my feelings to the only woman I loved.”
“You are so stupid, “Song Xueyun said with a sad smile.
“I know, “Han Nanxian nodded his head.
“I am still going to An City for a job, “Song Xueyun said.
Han Nanxian nodded his head. “I know.”
Seeing his lowered head, she ended up smiling. She raised his face and made him look at her. “I’m going to An City. I may fly there this Sunday and join the office on Monday. There are still three days left.”
Han Nanxian nodded his head. “I understand.”
“Nanxian?” Song Xueyun called out his name.
“Hmm?” Han Nanxian stared at her.
“Won’t you ask me to court me?” Song Xueyun asked. “Isn’t it the next time?”
“If it’s up to me, I will drag you with me to the civil affairs bureau, “Han Nanxian mumbled but she ended up hearing his mumblings.
“Have you done something silly?” Song Xueyun asked.
“Leaving you once?” Han Nanxian said.
“I will give you sixty seconds. If you find our house registration certificate in the given time, I will let you drag me to the civil affairs bureau because I’m going to overthink again and think that dating you is going to be difficult and you may leave me again, “Song Xueyun said everything with his eyes closed. “Losing you once made me lose myself and I can’t endure that you because you were not just my bestfriend but my lifeline too–“
He put a palm on her mouth and said, “Baby, you are wasting time.” With this he ran to find the thing that he needed too. He had never been more thankful for the fact that he cleaned this house daily and knew where he would find the items. A minute later, he was standing before her with the two house registration certificates and dragging her out of the door and Leo was running behind them.
“This is a bad idea, “Song Xueyun cried but she was not resisting it.
“You can always divorce me, “Han Nanxian said, calming her down.
“I’m wearing a tank top and shorts, “Song Xueyun said. “And I’m pretty mad at you for leaving me.”
“You are the most gorgeous woman in the world, “Han Nanxian replied, looking at her with a smile. “You can be mad at me everyday, every minute and every second. I don’t mind.”
“What are we doing?” Song Xueyun laughed and cried at the same time as she looked at the sky. “This feels…”
“Wrong?” Han Nanxian asked.
“Just weird?” Song Xueyun said with a scared look.
“It’s fine, “Han Nanxian laughed. As long as it didn’t feel wrong to her, it was acceptable to him. He refused to be happy. It could be a dream. If it was a dream, he would dream it until the very end.
One hour later, Song Xueyun and Han Nanxian were sitting on the stairs of the civil affairs bureau laughing while holding their stomach looking at the red books in their hands.
“Once I wake up from this dream, I’m going to beat you, “Song Xueyun said. “And take a cold shower to clear my head. My dreams are getting weird.”
“So are mine, “Han Nanxian mumbled.
The people around them were giving this couple weird gazes. They were sitting there for several minutes and discussing their marriage in dreams. Didn’t they know that they actually got married for real? It was a different thing that they were not dressed for the occasion. In short, the couple was weird as hell.
pAnD a(-)n0ve1.com “Should we eat out today?” Han Nanxian asked, putting the redbooks in his pocket.
“What did I tell you about not eating out?” Song Xueyun narrowed his eyes on him.
“Then, let’s go grocery shopping, “Han Nanxian sighed. “Leo is waiting for us.”
Holding eachother’s hand, they walked out of the building, thinking the disaster that they created was all in their dream. It was the most safe assumption for them because in Han Nanxian’s opinion, getting married to Song Xueyun was something that was possible only in dreams and according to her, she was just dreaming about this as it was not something that was possible in real life. Why would she ask the boy who broke her heart to marry her, right?
The two of them did grocery shopping, cooked lunch at home and took out Leo out for a walk in the evening. They made couple of dishes for the dinner and watched a old movie together before going to sleep in their respective rooms. The following morning, he woke up first and laughed at the absurd dream that he had last night and went out to find Song Xueyun arranging the breakfast table.
“Did you put all your clothes in the laundary basket?” Song Xueyun asked.
“I did, “Han Nanxian said.
“Check pockets of clothes before throwing them in laundary basket. Last time, I found a couple of coins. They always get stucked in washing machine, “Song Xueyun sighed. When she saw him standing up to check his clothes, she tsked and asked him to eat breakfast while she would see it. As she was checking his treksuit jacket that he was wearing yesterday, she found something heavy in the pocket and as she put her hand inside it, she took out two redbook.
Song Xueyun gazed at the redbooks and then at him.
“What happened?” Han Nanxian asked when he noticed how silent she fell all of a sudden. As he whipped his head to her side, he froze.
“It wasn’t a dream?” Both of them asked at the same time and realised they were screwed.