341 Marriage is economics
Han Nanxian and Song Xueyun are sitting in the living room, deep in thought. She left the clothes where they were placed when she found out that the disaster she caused was not in a dream but real life. She looked at her hand and wondered if she was supposed to wear a ring now.
“What are you thinking?” Han Nanxian asked, checking the waters. He wanted to know what was going on in her pretty head. If she was overthinking just like him…
“Am I supposed to wear a ring now?” Song Xueyun asked without thinking.
Han Nanxian was rendered speechless. He was assuming that she would be panicking but here she was talking so nonchalantly about the ring that for a moment he thought she was talking about the snack she wanted with tea.
“Are you panicking?” Song Xueyun questioned when she saw his pale face.
“Of course not, “Han Nanxian lied. He didn’t want to divorce. He was afraid that she was going to ask him to sign divorce papers or get an annulment. He didn’t want any of the two things. However, he would get a real heart attack if she told him to stay married to her.
Yes, he was one confusing man. But what could he do? He had never been married before. It was still unbelievable that he got married just like that. He was having the same feeling one would get if one slept through the exam. It was a weird comparison, wasn’t it? Well, what could he do when he was losing his brain?
“You are panicking, “Song Xueyun said, staring at his face. He was trying his best to look nonchalant but his feet were shaking and so were his hands. She couldn’t help but ask with a laugh, “Am I such a horrible wife?”
“No, “Han Nanxian said, panicking even more. He held her hand and added in a soft tone, “You are the best person out there. I couldn’t even imagine in my wildest dream that one day I will be married to you.”
It all sounded so dreamy— unbelievable. Who knew he took a flight last night and reached Utopia? The land where all his wildest and impossible dreams were coming true.
“I thought you liked me, “Song Xueyun muttered. Why did she feel bad about the thought that he might not like being married to her? There was certainly something wrong with her head. No, not something but everything was wrong with her or why would she ask this man to marry her?
“I love you, “Han Nanxian corrected her.
Song Xueyun felt embarrassed hearing him say that he loved her. She didn’t refuse his feelings which surprised her a lot. It didn’t feel bad being his wife. Moreover, whenever he would tell her that he loved her, she would have this warm feeling in her heart. Her heartbeat would quicken all on its own. She had never felt anything like this before.
“What are you thinking?” Han Nanxian asked her. Once again, she was in deep thought. He wondered what she was thinking right now.
p、A,nd A-n、o、ve,1 “I’m thinking that this situation is not that bad, “Song Xueyun told him. She turned to look at him and added, “I have a fair share of failed relationships in my life. I can tell you that I’m a horrible girlfriend. I’m obsessed with my work. You understand me better than anyone else even though we were away from each other for seven years.”
Han Nanxian didn’t know what she was talking about. However, he let her go ahead with her explanation. Maybe, soon she would start making sense.
“You said you have feelings for me. Does it sound dreamy being married to a nightmare like me?” Song Xueyun questioned.
“You are not a nightmare but an angel, “Han Nanxian said to her with a sigh. She had no idea about the nights that he spent alone wishing that he would just get to see her once, hug her once or maybe get a chance to confess his feelings to her before death.
Yesterday, he never thought that he would confess his feelings to her like that. When he heard that she was leaving for An City where she got her dream job, he began panicking. He was scared that he was going to lose her once again. It was bearable to live with a broken heart once but he was not sure if he would be able to go through the same experience again.
“Then, would you mind being married to this angel?” Song Xueyun blinked her eyes.
Han Nanxian’s heart stopped beating. This girl was giving her one shock after another. “What would you get by marrying me? I can tell you will find someone even better than me.”
She could find anyone better than her but he hoped that she didn’t. She chose to live with him. She chose him over everyone else. This was his only wish.
“I hate when you underestimate yourself, “Song Xueyun scolded him. “Why do you always look down on yourself?”
Han Nanxian sighed. It was not the answer he was hoping to get but he wouldn’t say that it didn’t feel good when she felt that he was selling himself for short.
“Alright, “She raised her hand in the air and answered, “Being married to you is going to make my overcomplicated life easier. I know this may sound selfish but I think it’s okay. We both are chasing some goals and objectives. I don’t have to worry about my nagging parents and their attempts to set me up on dates. I won’t have to worry about my boyfriend being stolen when I’m at work. I know that you will be loyal to this relationship. I’m ready to work hard to make this marriage work because I don’t think it’s a disaster. To me, this marriage is a good deal. In short, it’s worth investing time and effort.”
“But you don’t love me, “Han Nanxian sighed. “And this sounds like a business transaction with all the profits and losses that you are calculating in your head.”
“How many love marriages succeed?” Song Xueyun questioned. “Also, what’s wrong with chasing some profits in life?”
“Yunyun, you should think this through. Your entire life will be changed, “Han Nanxian said with a sigh. “Marriage is a big decision in life. I agree that there is nothing wrong with chasing profit in relationships too. But what would you do when you are losing, making sacrifices and putting a lot more time here than in your career?”
He didn’t want her to regret it after talking big. He could see that she was nervous too yet she was proposing such a bizarre idea. He would love nothing more than to spend an entire lifetime with her but he would hate it if she felt trapped inside this marriage. From this moment onwards his feelings for her were going to increase not decrease. What would he do if she felt after two days that they were not fit for each other?
Although he was against the idea of annulment or divorce, he was not in favour of this whole flash marriage thing either. He felt it would be good if they decided to take one step at a time from here.
“You are emotionally thinking too much, “Song Xueyun said. “Moreover, marriage is a long-term investment. I’m willing. Why aren’t you too?”
“It’s not just an investment for me, “Han Nanxian said. “It’s a big decision in my life. I am grateful that you are my wife on paper but I would want you to be my wife in all senses. I don’t want you to regret your decision later if you keep considering it a potential investment.”
Song Xueyun sighed. “Flash news: we are already married. The contract has been signed. The investment has been made. We have to put resources like our time and efforts on time to reap plentiful profits in future.”
“Yunyun, marriage is not economics, “Han Nanxian told her.
Song Xueyun stood up and he was left wondering about where she went. A while later, she returned with a pen and paper. She placed the paper on the table and asked him to concentrate here.
“What is the basic definition of economics?” Song Xueyun asked. “Economics is the science which studies human behaviour as a relationship between ends and scarce means which have alternative uses. We have ends here which are basically the goals of our life. We have means that are time and effort. We are just finding its alternative uses. So, we are not just investing in our careers but our personal life too. Tell me, how is marriage not economics?”
Han Nanxian gave her a bad gaze but she didn’t stop there. “We got married, which means we made an agreement. We will pool our resources toward a common goal/end. According to this agreement, we state that both parties involved, that is you and I, are committed to making it work. We invest with hopes for great returns over time. Tell me, how is marriage not economics?”